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RicOlie_2 said:

That’s something, I guess. But be aware that marijuana can be addictive, and it certainly won’t help you overcome your problems in the longterm.

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RicOlie_2 said:

It’s tough not having anyone you feel you can confide in, but it’s good that you’re getting it off your chest here.

Whatever you do, don’t do drugs, or start any sort of addiction. That could seriously screw up your life. While it might feel like your world is collapsing because you’ve hit a rough patch, it’s not over yet. I’ve been there, and I know it can feel pretty hopeless sometimes, but it isn’t. Keep fighting.

You want to be able to look back years from now, and feel relieved that you didn’t get addicted to drugs. You don’t want to look back with regret on the decision that ruined your life. If you’re depressed, that’s really not a good time to be experimenting with things that could harm your health, because your judgement isn’t what it would otherwise be.

Don’t give up yet. Focus on the positives, even if there don’t seem to be many. It can be painful to keep a secret about not believing the same thing as your parents, but remember that you only have to hide it a few more years (I know, it seems long, but when you look back on it, it won’t seem so bad) and then you can finally be true to yourself. Just don’t destroy yourself in the meantime or you really won’t be able to face yourself.

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Neglify said:

Oh hey cool this thread got re-opened. It’s a 4/20 miracle!

darthrush said:

What does anyone think of doing weed? Is it of much harm and does it help with feeling depressed?

Weed, just like any drug or medication, will affect every person differently. Some feel less depressed, some feel more depressed. It can help get you out of your head but it could also make you introvert on your problems more. It also makes every movie funnier and/or more confusing.

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suspiciouscoffee said:

Long story ahead. I may fall asleep soon after posting it, so if anyone replies, I may not see it for a while. Not that anyone should really pay attention to the ramblings of a random teenager, but… idk. Whatever. Here goes…

This story begins about two weeks ago when I went to a sort of camp thing for a few days. It was fun and all and things were going well, and suddenly things got even better for me. I met a girl who actually seemed to enjoy my company. Hell, at one point she even seemed to get adorably giddy to see me. We talked for a long time and she actually seemed like she enjoyed talking to me. ‘Holy ****, she might actually like me!’ I thought. It was a first. Suddenly, I began to delude myself into thinking I was completely straight, and so that night I was happy, happier than I’d been in a long time.
The next night was a “dance,” a raucous affair that I didn’t want any part of. For the most part, it was miserable. I stood around anxiously hoping to not be noticed by anyone (except her) and stared into the colorful lights (which in a strange way was somewhat calming, even if undoubtedly bad for my eyes). Eventually, the girl found me and we spent most of the night sitting against the wall in the back and talking, but it was getting late and my anxiety kicked in hard as usual, so I kept asking her if I was bothering her, but she kept insisting that I wasn’t. Then, my hopes jumped up way too high and I stuttered out a stupid question. Upon my asking, she sighed and admitted that she had a boyfriend. She did give me her phone number though, which is more than anyone ever has before really.
Anyway, the camp ends and we part ways. We text each other for a while but eventually I realize that she in fact did not purge my faggotry and I’m still bi at best, but then I felt guilty. I felt like I was somehow lying to her, or to myself, or to someone. I haven’t texted her in a few days because I figured it was pointless to make myself feel even more miserable. So now it’s all back; the intense fear of God, the feeling that I’m some kind of fraud, the suicidal thoughts accompanied by the fear that I’d go to hell, so killing myself would make things worse. Last night it was really bad and I couldn’t bear it, so I just dumped it all on a friend of mine late at night (having no prior knowledge of my faggotry, but he seemed pretty chill about it). It made me feel a little better, but I still have no idea what to do about any of it. There’s no way I could tell my parents about any of this lest they expidiate my inevitable trip to hell, and any time I try to talk to my mom about any of my other problems it doesn’t go well (like a month or so ago when I brought up the frequent beatings I took in middle school locker rooms a few years back and she denied ever knowing about it despite me having brought it up several times). I can’t tell my father any of my problems lest he become even more disappointed in me. I’m still not the Super Star Athlete Son™ he always wanted and I have nothing but contempt for mindless, barbaric athletic competition. He treats that as a personal failing on his part so he continually forces me to partake in mindless, barbaric athletic competition. If I told him any of my problems, he’d probably treat those as woeful failings of his as a parent and as a person, and he’s so fundamentalist that I wouldn’t be surprised if he took me to he edge of town and stoned me if he found out about my faggotry.

I don’t even know what I’m trying to say at this point. I’m just tired of feeling guilty any time I have any kind of affection for anyone, tired of being a lousy son, tired of wanting to die and being too afraid to, tired of being afraid of God, and just tired in general.

Feel free to ignore this post, I’m a mess and I just needed to vent.

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It’s no problem if you want to borrow some audio from my edit 😃

Disco_Lobot said:

I’m an orginal trilogy fan who saw TESB and ROTJ in the theaters (born in 1976, so a bit too young for ANH) and I loved Rogue One. I feel like they finally made a great Star Wars film again. Interestingly enough all my buddies who are around the same age feel the same. This is easily the best SW film made since ROTJ and possibly the best since TESB (I’ll have to wait a year or so to see where it really falls in for me).

I do like TFA, but it has moved down for me on repeated watchings. I initially had TFA about equal to ROTJ (if not higher), but now it’s fallen in squarely behind the OT and Rogue One. I still think TFA is a good movie (and better than the PT… it may be derivative, but at least it’s well made, acted and entertaining).

Rogue One has only moved up for me on multiple re-watchings. I’ve always enjoyed the characters - they are different (more subtle and the characterizations are more realstic than most other Star Wars films) so I don’t really understand that critique and I actually enjoyed all the different scenes/planets in the first act from my first viewing.

Chirrut is an awesome character - better than all the Jedi in the PT put together… .in fact he’s much more like how I always imagined the Prequel era Jedi to be when you here Obi-Wan’s dialogue in the OT.

The CGI characters didn’t bother me, although I did feel there was a little something off about Leia. Tarkin I feel looks great and I never noticed anything off. Interestingly enough, I know quite a few more casual fans who saw the film (none of them knew Cushing had passed away) and they were all blown away when I explained to them that Tarkin was a CGI character from the OT. I think the fact that we all go in already knowing characters are CGI can impact how we perceive them.

The 3rd act of the film is one of the best in the entire Star Wars saga - just great action and awesome effects. The space battle is the first one I’ve seen that is even in the ballpark of being as good as ROTJ (I still give ROTJ a lot of credit since that was optically composited in the early 80s and STILL looks so good). The vader scene at the end is of course awesome.

I didn’t particularly need to see C3PO and R2D2, but thankfully silly nostalgia items like that were kept to a minimum.

I loved Rogue One and as someone who grew up playing with Kenner action figures and later playing X-wing and Tie-Fighter this is the kind of SW film I’ve always wanted to see.

I wanted to say this was a dang good review! Loved hearing your perspective on the film.

TK-949 said:

13 Reasons Why.

I love the book and the show is really good.

My high school is going crazy over this show.

thejediknighthusezni said:

They move Carlson to 8pm. The first person they have him interview is Bruce Jenner.

Gotta admit, that’s a very clever way to discredit the one “conservative” who was gaining traction.

I wonder if the same INTENSELY DEPRAVED SATANISTS who give us NatGeo tranny kiddie-porn and delusional non-miraculous little boy-raper “Jesus” will keep trotting out their vomit-inducing Baphomet horrors until Carlson and Hannity are the most despised A-holes in the little that’s left of this nation.

Don’t you dare compare my precious Tucker to that despicable Hannity.

TV’s Frink said:

When someone says stuff like what I linked to, I don’t really care if he has good points on other things, I’m done listening to him. Maybe that’s a flaw of mine, but I have no patience or tolerance for it whatsoever.

I understand. I guess I’m fine just tossing out the shit. The suggested support for Holocaust deniers is fucking awful though. I had no idea he said that.

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darthrush said:

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darthrush said:

This Gavin McInnes guy is quite the personality.

But not in a good way.

He has some good points actually. When he starts talking about his sex life though, it just goes wrong. Very…very…wrong.

I didn’t watch, I’m talking about other stuff he’s said.

http://www.cjnews.com/news/canada/rebel-media-star-gets-flak-10-things-hate-jews-video

Emphasis on some. He is batshit crazy, I know that. But he makes some good points. Listening to Joe Rogan’s podcast when he had McInnes on was really insightful .Until Gavin ranted about his sex life. It seems to always fit a way into his conversations.

TV’s Frink said:

darthrush said:

This Gavin McInnes guy is quite the personality.

But not in a good way.

He has some good points actually. When he starts talking about his sex life though, it just goes wrong. Very…very…wrong.

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darthrush said:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFFJWzgUmTE

Lets just say this was an…interesting interview.

Aah, my last Thanksgiving dinner.

It’s actually hilarious. This Gavin McInnes guy is quite the personality.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MFFJWzgUmTE

Lets just say this was an…interesting interview.

Listening to the albums of “The La’s” right now and really enjoying them. From what I’ve heard, there music is strangely relaxing for me to listen to.

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darthrush said:

What does anyone think of doing weed? Is it of much harm and does it help with feeling depressed?

It is not much harm. Whether or not it helps with being depressed in general varies both depending on the person and the strain of weed. It definitely makes recreational activities enhanced and more enjoyable though, so if you’re already in a good place and doing something you love, it will make it even better. If you’re in a bad place and feeling down and hoping it will make it better, well like I said it just depends on the person and the strain. It definely can go both ways. It might get you out of your funk and make you want to try something fun, or it might make you sit and over think about everything and make it worse. If you’re gonna try it get the highest quality you can and start on a small dose, maybe one puff or two. Don’t get cheap weed, it’s not a better value because it takes more for the effect and the effect isn’t as good or uplifting.

I just made a deal for some brownies and edibles so I’ll report back on what it’s like once I finally get them.

Totally different experience than smoking. It also takes effect very slowly as opposed to smoking, so don’t make the rookie mistake of eating one, think you haven’t taken enough then eat another one only to be tripping balls a few hours later. It’ll take a few hours to kick in, so just eat one or even a half then wait a few hours. Not that eating too many would actually hurt you because it wouldn’t, but it also wouldn’t be an enjoyable experience.

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Possessed said:

Well the first off topic/complaining (not exactly complaining I know, but negative anyway) post since it got unlocked was yours, so… Let’s just move on.

I love indica highs over sativa highs when it comes to pot.

Could you explain? I am absolutely clueless in this field of things haha.

Indica based strains are generally more relaxed and heavy feeling. They are more “hazy” and will relax you and take away your worries. Great for relaxing at home to a movie or music. Sativa based strains are lighter, yet also more intense in some ways. They energize you and are very uplifting, and will definitely feel very stimulating. Great for activities.

However I’ve find that your state of mind has a bigger effect than the strain. If you’re trying to relax and can only find sativas that doesn’t mean you can’t still relax.

Most strains these days are hybrids, the best of both worlds so to speak.

Listen to your favorite band while high, it will make it a brand new experience.

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darthrush said:

What does anyone think of doing weed? Is it of much harm and does it help with feeling depressed?

It is not much harm. Whether or not it helps with being depressed in general varies both depending on the person and the strain of weed. It definitely makes recreational activities enhanced and more enjoyable though, so if you’re already in a good place and doing something you love, it will make it even better. If you’re in a bad place and feeling down and hoping it will make it better, well like I said it just depends on the person and the strain. It definely can go both ways. It might get you out of your funk and make you want to try something fun, or it might make you sit and over think about everything and make it worse. If you’re gonna try it get the highest quality you can and start on a small dose, maybe one puff or two. Don’t get cheap weed, it’s not a better value because it takes more for the effect and the effect isn’t as good or uplifting.

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Now all FOX has left to do is get rid of Hannity and then leave everything for Tucker. I can’t tell you how many times I have wanted to punch Hannity in the face when watching TV.

Possessed said:

Well the first off topic/complaining (not exactly complaining I know, but negative anyway) post since it got unlocked was yours, so… Let’s just move on.

I love indica highs over sativa highs when it comes to pot.

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Rey knowing what Chewie is saying is pretty trivial if you ask me. Look toward her lack of trials and failures, her understanding of the falcon, utter ease of force pulling lightsabers and performing mind tricks. Her knowing a language doesn’t really mean shit to me in contrast to many of the bigger things you can look at.

TV’s Frink said:

Yeah but bow-tie.

It’s quite lovely.

I am very glad that O’Reilly is now finally off. At least FOX news has Tucker Carlson. He actually brings some life to that show and defends his views logically.