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#1105920
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The Place to Go for Emotional Support
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https://originaltrilogy.com/post/id/1105920/action/topic#1105920
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My previous handle was darth_gollum. I chose this name with a deliberate reference to the darkness and misery of the LOTR character. I was a depressed individual in my late teens, but I also wallowed in my misery. I thought it brought me attention and affection. I just had to show others how lowly my lot was and they would give me my sense of self-worth. I would write depressing poetry and make every effort to draw attention to my pain. When I didn’t get enough love, I would pout and sink further into depression. It took me years to realize that I could actually choose to be happy instead of letting others choose for me.

I share this, not to lecture, but hopefully to show that one’s self-worth does not depend on the generosity of others. I am not the most confident man in the world, but I do recognize that my happiness comes from within. I hope that the sadness and anger in this thread can be overcome when people internalize their locus of control and take responsibility for their own emotional outcomes. There are ways you can get help for those things which are difficult to control, like overwhelming depression, anger, or anxiety. But none of it will do any good until you realize that there is also a power within you. All the efforts of therapy and pep talks and medication will never change your lot unless you change your outlook first.

I hope that someone comes to find some inspiration in this. You can be happy if you want to be.

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#1105919
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The Enderverse (WAS: Finally! Ender's Game emerges from Development Hell!)
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https://originaltrilogy.com/post/id/1105919/action/topic#1105919
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Watching the movie tonight. I’ve decided that Ender’s Game remains one of my favorite books, Speaker for the Dead is an interesting philosophical follow-up that I prefer to think of as a sequel when I feel like it, but otherwise like to ignore. Otherwise, I am going to ignore the rest of the series. Ender’s Game established so many amazing ideas and interesting characters, which Orson Scott Card systematically destroyed with each successive book. The movie was such a disappointment in so many ways as well. I will remain extremely loyal to the first novel and its amazing hero, give limited appreciation to the second, and disown the rest of the franchise.

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#1105330
Topic
Random Thoughts
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https://originaltrilogy.com/post/id/1105330/action/topic#1105330
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TV’s Frink said:

yhwx said:

Warbler said:

I tried to find the right photo of Luke saying “I care” but I couldn’t find it.

Didn’t you just post it?

Warb missed the joke.

Warb, the whole point of the exact image you posted is that it’s the wrong image for the quote. It’s an ot.com meme. You did the meme right except you didn’t know you did it right and then you ruined it by saying you did it wrong when you in fact had done it right accidentally.

I’m sure that clears everything up.