Again, what's really weird is I think I very easily could end up a little dependent on it. But, really though - I feel motivated in a way I don't without it. It's tough to explain without giving a huge overview of my life, but I'm very much a product of my generation and the whole "instant gratification" thing. A lot of times, seriously applying myself scares me because I'm not sure if it will truly pay off in my future. Marijuana tends to alleviate these feelings for awhile and I end up with not only more energy (after I've "come down") but also much more confidence in myself. Suddenly, other people don't seem so scary and I don't mind reaching out even if I'm not sure it will mean anything the day after.
I've thought about getting one for recreational purposes before but I never really took it seriously like this, so my thought process is a little bit more calculated than in that situation.
I remember why I posted this: outside and objective perspective. Thanks, TheBoost.