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#596182
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How do I start living life?
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So it's pretty obvious that you're not so much socially awkward as you are severely, severely depressed. CP3S pretty much says it all, but I'd like to add some gravity:

Depression like you suffer from is a terminal thing. It will kill you eventually. So you need to get help. I saw something about counseling and psychiatrists up there, and I don't know how much therapy you're currently attending but something may be wrong in the process you're in if it's been awhile and you're not making any progress. Maybe you need to find a new therapist, or maybe you're (or they, sometimes there are bad ones) not taking it seriously enough and need to really throw yourself on the mercy of the system, or maybe you need medication or aren't taking the ones prescribed to you, or maybe you just need to redouble your efforts, I don't know.

Besides the depression, you clearly have a lot of anxiety (maybe just social anxiety, but probably more generalized) and intrusive thoughts judging by your social problems and your blaming things out of your control on your actions. Combined with the depression, this creates a cycle that keeps you depressed and thus they need to be treated as well. Bring these up to your therapist, they love those clinical designations.

Speaking as someone who has been through depression (albeit mild) and the system personally, and has seen many other people go through both, what you need to do is do your research and find a therapist who you can trust and form a connection with (keep looking until you find one) and then tell them everything, word-for-word, that you told us. Print it out and read it off to them if you have to. You also need to trust what they tell you to do and do it. Remember that medication is not a bad thing. This is a very, very serious thing and while we want to help you, I doubt any of us here are equipped to deal with it like a professional is.

Additionally, it is extremely important to remember that you are not the only one who feels this way. I'm willing to bet that everyone in the world suffers from varying degrees of depression at multiple points in their life. Even more important to remember is that it can be treated, and you can feel better. It may take awhile and it will take a lot of work, but, trust me, it will be one hundred percent worth it when you feel better.

But you need to do something, and it needs to be soon. Social interaction and girls can wait here (in fact, you'll find that both will be much easier when you're less depressed), because if this isn't dealt with, you will die. And while I can't speak for anyone else here, I know that I don't want you to die.

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#595745
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How do I start living life?
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Bingowings said:

I'm sure you can easily understand a game like Magic but why don't you pretend to be a little bit more green?

Ask if one of them can explain the basics to you and maybe the whole group will get involved. People tend to enjoy explaining their interests to other people.

Just stop being so self conscious matey.

The worst thing that can happen is they can say no in which case just join in with someone else's thing you wouldn't want to hang around rude cliquey people anyway.

Yes, yes. To Drax you listen. Don't overthink shit, just put yourself in a situation and deal with it. You're making it seem much harder than it is.

Just go up, ask what they're playing, say "Oh hey I've always wanted to get into that!" and go from there.

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#595655
Topic
How do I start living life?
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You just gotta put yourself out there. That's how it works.

 

You'll read that and snort, "Oh that's easier said than done." and you'd be right, but you just have to force yourself to do it. Talk to the person who sits next to you in a class; ask to borrow a pencil or something. Ask them how they did on the last test, or if they got question 10a wrong too and "oh that Mr. Jackson is a real hard-ass." Even if you didn't. Follow their cues. You have to fake it until you make it sometimes.

You really just have to not overthink things and swallow your awkwardness and put yourself out there. I think you'll find that it's a lot easier than you've been making it seem in your head.

 

Trust me, I was homeschooled from the time I was about four or five until I was about seventeen and my parents forced me into junior college.

Up until that point my only real long-term "friends" had been my little brother and my dog (there were some other non-relative kids here and there along the way, but I never stayed in touch with them for long). The only other people I knew were on the internet, and that went also for girls (protip: never fall in love with internet ladies as a minor with no means to close the gap because you will go insane). It was a pretty dark and shitty time in my life, being seventeen, not wanting to be in school because you were depressed and would rather sleep all day, had no concept of how to do schoolwork or will to do it, and were an incredibly lonely virgin who thought they'd always be that way.

It took some time to come out of that shell. People eventually started to talk to me in classes and I would talk back; the professor would say or do something funny, I'd look over and laugh with the person next to me, eventually that became discussing schoolwork; eventually that became talking, eventually that became hanging out on break or after class, eventually that became hanging out off-campus, and eventually you meet new people from that person in much the same way, and you start building your network.

I don't even talk to the guy who started talking to me in that writing class anymore, but through him, I met someone else, through her I got absorbed into this huge group filled with drama and idiots and assholes, but when that group shattered, I came away with a few exemplary people who I call my best friends to this day; I even wound up with a couple steady girlfriends and all kinds of crazy sex from the whole thing.

And now here I am writing this from a real university where I'm taking classes in subjects that I want to make a career from; I have friends and a life and everything is pretty A-okay.

 

But it wasn't easy. Meeting people is hard (and I admit it's still hard). Meeting women is doubly hard (ditto). Succeeding is hard. Life is hard. But you just have to just have to put your head down and push and never stop pushing. To stagnate is to die; you gotta keep moving like a shark. You have to stop psyching yourself out by overthinking every little detail of everything and the myriad ways you could fail (this was, and is, my case; I'm not sure if it's yours, but you have to identify what's holding you back and then do the opposite of that it says).

And you will fail; you won't make a connection with someone, or you'll find out they like dubstep or are into illicit activities or something and you don't want any part of it; that's fine, as long as you keep moving, and as long as you don't use every excuse you can to not keep pushing (overlook some flaws).

I'm writing a novel here, but there are few things I enjoy more than trying to help people find and pursue their potential.

 

Just put yourself out there: talk to someone in your class; set up a study group or start small and try to find a study buddy even if you don't need one; if you can't find one in one class, try the next; if that doesn't work, meet someone at the gym, ask about a workout routine or how to do a certain exercise; overlook minor flaws and meet new people through them; don't make excuses not to try, don't overanalyze, just do. I've been where you are. I know that feel bro. But I also know that if you put your nose to the grindstone, you can overcome it because you've already gotten in shape and learned to dress, and this requires the same discipline, just in a different way.

No excuses.

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#593658
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The Clone Wars: Season V
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stretch009 said:

Bingowings said:

I like You Only Eat Rice 

 

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You only live twice?

thatsthejoke.jpg

 

And to address the point that we should be more up-in-arms... I'm as up-in-arms as the next guy. I just happen to also enjoy The Clone Wars because it reminds me more of the OT that I know and love more than anything else that's come out since ROTJ.

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#593263
Topic
The Clone Wars: Season V
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As a huge Boba Fett/Mandalorian fan, I am not much pleased with what Lucas did to Fett in AOTC, and I hate what Karen Traviss did to the Mandalorians in her sad excuse for Mary-Sue Ridden literature; that said, I'm finding Boba a much more compelling and interesting character thanks to The Clone Wars (though he is something of a talkative brat who is still very much wet-behind-the-ears to a duncey degree, but I'm hoping they're setting up some character development with that), bitter as I am about his treatment in AOTC, the show makes him likable and interesting.

And The Clone Wars has given me a very interesting treatment of the Mandalorians to entertain (and it remains to be seen if it will enter into my personal canon [that is largely dependent on if the Death Watch end up taking Mandalore back to basics, though I would also like to see a return to the True Mandalorians of Jaster Mereel's train of thought]); the whole pacifist thing can be easily explained after the whole Massacre of Galidraan from Open Seasons, and it'll be exciting to see where they go with it.

The same holds true with Anakin, who I think we all believe is one of the most mishandled characters in the prequels. The Clone Wars you actually see him as a hero, doing heroic things and being a good guy who everyone likes and trusts; you're always rooting for him to save the day. It's really hard to imagine this Anakin falling to the dark side, until he loses control and you're reminded of just who this guy becomes and what the whole series is leading up to, really (and it's interesting to note that Anakin and Angry Anakin really do seem like two different characters, so you can understand where Obi-Wan is coming from when he muses that Vader and not Anakin was seduced by the dark side).

The show also makes the clones into characters, as well. Instead of a bunch of nameless, mindless drones, we get to see that they all have their own personalities and thoughts. Half the time, they're the best characters of the show, and I always love when they do spotlight episodes on them because they're really the human element of the show in a universe full of The Force, they're just your average joe soldiers with no special powers, that, plus their more human personalities make them really easy to relate to. And when they die, you feel it.

And yes, the show also makes Jar-Jar stomachable. He's still an idiot, but he's not an idiot just to be one, and as the show progresses, he becomes more competent... or at least puts his idiocy to good use. I can't believe I'm saying that.

And yes, there's flashy action and saber battles and lasers flying all over, but there are also poignant moments as well: like when Yoda inspires his small band of wounded clones; or when we see the clones of Domino squad go from trainees to real soldiers and the friends they see die along the way; or when Boba has to decide whether or not to kill his hostages in cold blood; or when the slave girl or Death Watch sympathizer commit suicide rather than be captured; or when Waxer and Boyle find the little Twi-Lek girl and have to bring her safely home; or when the Captain Keeli and Ima-Gun Di (get it?) are overrun by battledroids on Ryloth; or when Anakin goes out of control after he thinks Obi-Wan was killed; or when Anakin gets a glimpse of his future on Mortis; or when Rex finds out that he's been betrayed by his commander and his men have been attacking their brothers. There are way more than this, too, but this is what they don't show you in the trailers and previews, and it's what keeps me coming back to the series. Not the flash and the bang, but the deeper layers and meanings behind stuff, and it's just (usually) so well done and intriguing and makes sense. Filoni really knows how to please Lucas and (many of) the fans.

Personally, I feel like The Clone Wars is what the prequels should have been.

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#592963
Topic
The Clone Wars: Season V
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There are plenty of deeper moments in The Clone Wars that aren't all about lightsaber-swinging. But you'd have to actually watch it to see them because they rarely put them in the trailers.

I wouldn't put it on the same level as the Dagobah scenes from The Empire Strikes Back, but saying that The Clone Wars is solely about glowsticks and posing as a team because shit just got real is doing the show a real injustice and makes me feel like you've only seen the trailers or just a couple of the episodes from Season One (the show doesn't really pick up until Season Three).

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#591769
Topic
The Clone Wars: Season V
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If you're not caught up on this yet, or you haven't even started, then you need to start/catch up now.

Because season five is going to be awesome.

 

I haven't nerded out over Star Wars this much in a long time, and it is sorely needed after that god-awful Star Wars: Detours news. THIS is how Star Wars is supposed to be. Dayum, dayum, DAYUM.

 

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#578187
Topic
Don's Dinos
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So I was checking out the interwebs looking for some photos of dinosaurs for various projects when I stumbled across the website of Donald F. Glut.

I'm sure most of us would know him from his novelization of The Empire Strikes Back. Don also has a pretty prolific writing career including books and comics, and a deep fascination with dinosaurs, and, naturally, a huge collection of dinosaur memorabilia.

So I clicked on his site, thinking, "Wow, this will be cool! Don Glut is neat, and I bet he has some cool stuff in his collection!"

Turns out that his collection also includes a lot of women whose attire ranges from scantily-clad to more or less nude, posing with his collection of dinosaur stuff. Now I love naked women as much as the next guy, but in the given context, it was somewhat disturbing in a way I can't quite put my finger on...

It's obviously not safe for work, but it's an interesting and somewhat-creepy/fetishistic tour through his collection.

Check it out!