Possessed

Not really. I’m only better physically. Mentally I’m dying.

Yes my body is in good shape but the problem is I was left with sky high blood pressure because alcohol shrivels your blood vessels. I am told that pot helps relax them and lower bp so there’s actually a decent chance that if I hadn’t also been smoking pot on the regular I may have died. My blood pressure is almost normal now but I’m still on medicine for it so I don’t know how long I’ll have to be on it.

And thank you guys. I haven’t had a drink in over a month and it’s hard, I used to never go more than a few hours without one.

Dude what the fuck if warbler wanted his pm thread public he would have posted it in the forum

I’m not making any effort to be happy or healthy but heart attack isn’t the way I want to peace out at age 24

I really want a drink. Truthfully the only reason I haven’t had one is because I’m scared of how it would react to my blood pressure medicine… That I had to be put on because of my years of heavy alcohol abuse.

I never said I was smart about taking care of myself. Lol

I don’t even know why I want it. I don’t physically crave it anymore. Pot gives me all the benefits it did minus any of the side effects and I’ve lost 20 pounds just in the past five weeks since quitting. (Not that I particularly needed to but it’s still nice nonetheless). I don’t know why I want it, I just feel like I need something heavier. I feel like I’m missing part of myself, like drinking was part of my identity. I have a mad self destructive streak and pot just doesn’t cut it I guess, despite having all the positive effects I guess pot just isn’t destructive enough to satisfy me. Which is insane. Maybe I’ll get over it. Maybe I won’t. Feels like I’m dying anyway and events in my personal life have a huge part to play in that and if I had my life of 3 months ago back but with my sobriety I would be on top of the world. This has become very rambly and I honestly don’t even remember what all I’ve said and I don’t feel like reading it back. I haven’t drank or anything I’ve just become so disconnected from everything lately I feel like I’m a million miles away from everything and everybody.

Seether-Fine Again
Seether-Broken

God Damn I wasnt ready for this, these songs hit me like a ton of bricks. I relate to them so much, especially fine again. I’d never even heard them before and they randomly autoplayed on my YouTube. Man, I’m not very okay. The lyrics of fine again overwhelmed me.

dahmage said:

Gin + gingerale

Used to drink this all the time. Had one on my lunch break sometimes.

And to everyone that worried when seeing my name on this thread again no I still have not drank in 5 weeks or so although I would really like to.

TV’s Frink said:

dahmage said:

TV’s Frink said:

This is not the random thoughts thread.

paja you are completely and totally doing it wrong. Please stop.

DuracellEnergizer said:

Collipso said:

maybe it’s just shitty february. crappiest time of the year.

Let’s be honest — the entire state of Possessed’s existence sucks bullocks.

I don’t get it

I’m no expert but given some things I’ve read I think in motion it’s not nearly that high.

vbangle said:

Make sure you have a snake bite kit and sunscreen, its going to be a hot one…

dahmage said:

You can tell that is fake, because one of the rocks is a rotary phone.

And because the earth looks round.

#staywoke

You have no idea, it’s actually far worse.

We all are part of it to talk about how much better pizza would be if you didn’t like it.

OP updated and topic changed.

SilverWook said:

TV’s Frink said:

All I know is that Shape of Water looks weird as fuck just based on the clip or two I saw in the brief moments I looked up during the Oscars. The fish man looked ridiculous, not something that should inhabit a serious film.

Doesn’t it resemble Abe Sapien from the Hellboy movies, also played by the same actor?

I decided against seeing it when I heard a gastronomic spoiler.

In any case, want to bet Universal gets that perpetually delayed Creature From The Black Lagoon remake into first gear now?

I once bought a bottle of rubbing alcohol that said “ingesting will cause serious gastronomical disturbances”. Was it related to that? Asking because these are the only two times I’ve ever heard that word.

Man they ruined Yoda being in the film in a trailer? Glad I didn’t watch that. Being totally surprised when he showed up was delightful. How he looked was disappointing however but i got over it.

Nvm

My dad’s cat definitely has maxed out agility.

Now you’ve done it.

For me the correct way would have been to first notice he was gone

Surprise surprise paja isn’t doing it right

My biggest hope for the audio is that adywan use the 1997 sound mix over the 2004 as the base in contrast to the first revisited. The 2004 for esb is fine but God is anh butchered. Yes he fixed a few jarring issues but the sound is flawed at its base. The dialogue sounds like every other line is from a different source. It’s overall sound is very brittle and dull. The only thing it has over the 1997 mix is it’s a bit more powerful sounding and it has a better lfe. But perhaps the 97 mix with the 2004 lfe could be used? And yes I know ady did numerous fixes and remixes to the sound but it still clearly resembles the dreadful 2004 mix complete with inconsistent dialogue quality.

I had an actual literal screaming match with one of the big whigs at my job. I hate this place. I want out. I’m tired of feeling this way all the time. This is the first actual screaming match I’ve had but I feel this angry and frustrated every day and I’m done.