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#782117
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STAR WARS: EP V &quot;REVISITED EDITION&quot;<strong>ADYWAN</strong> - <strong>12GB 1080p MP4 VERSION AVAILABLE NOW</strong>
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I always believed it was Manbearpig, and that seeing such a traumatic sight is what gave Luke the shock he needed to press on after sustaining such injuries.

*This entire post is a satire and I apologize for any off-topicness it may incur.

I always thought it was something out of his belt.  But if it turned out to not be something under his belt, it would literally not affect the movie for me at all.

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#781901
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My music
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Nope, it's from a final fantasy game called 'mystic quest' for SNES, not really that wonderful of a game to be honest but I've always LOVED those songs.  (it's a combination of two songs).  The song that's the beginning and the end of it is from a level called "Doom Castle".

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#781821
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My music
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Just for your own reference I've decided to re-record the lead guitars in the first segment of this (Up until the tempo changes to a mid-paced hard rock type thing) because they don't have very good intonation, meaning they are slightly off-pitch.  (It's the guitar, I need to have it worked on.  It's the only part I used that guitar on and it's the only part that sounds like that, so it has to be the guitar.)

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#781539
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If you need to B*tch about something... this is the place
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Please don't take what I'm about to say the wrong way.  I'm NOT saying it in a "you should have already done this by now", I'm saying it in a genuine "I think this will help you" way.  You should get a job.  I know it's hard to go out, and I know it will be difficult, but I really truly believe it will help you for a variety of reasons on a variety of fronts.

For one, it will give you a reason to leave the house every day.  Something to do, something to keep you busy, something to get your mind focusing on things other than yourself and how lousy you feel.  When I was really depressed, getting a job really helped.  You will get to interact with different people on a daily basis and it will help the loneliness.  You can start to make friends.


And that leads me to the second positive thing about getting a job.  While the job will no doubt certainly help in some regard, if it does not help enough and you still feel like you need support, you may have made friends at your new job that you can talk to instead of your parents.  I can say that my co-workers are my best friends, and my family, and we often get together outside of work when we can.  We care about each other  (Neglify's concerns about being told we need help rings very true with me due to some of my 'habits'... lol) and we support each other.

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#781391
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Star Wars V- XXTELECINE 7XX version 3.2
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Dude, you do really good work, I loved your ROTJ and I look forward to watching this ESB, but YOU CANNOT POST THAT HERE.  There's a link to the torrent directly on the page you just linked to, you should definitely edit that out.  Judging by the way you worded the post it almost seems like it could be an accident, but either way that's a serious offense around here.

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#781385
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If you need to B*tch about something... this is the place
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I too recommend you go to a doctor Leo.  I don't personally recommend prescription medication, as I had a bad experience with it, but then again that experience may differ with you.  But your doctor will probably know of some good therapy/counseling that you could go to and that will really help more than you'd think it would.  As far as medicating yourself goes, I recommend herbs (no, not THAT one... :P) such as chamomile, passion flower (yes it makes you horny... but there are plenty of other benefits as well), lavender, kava kava (especially), HTTP-5, GABBA, and Valerian root.  I would recommend ordering a supplement containing those herbs, I do this and it has helped me greatly with my depression and anxiety.  I still have depression and anxiety, but no where near the level it was before I started taking them.  I ordered it from amazon, the one I like the best is called "Anxietall", which is just a cute name they gave it it's completely herbal.  I know I know, I'm just a dirty hippie, but I promise it does help.

As far as my own updates go, my headaches have, for the most part, stopped. I feel better than I have in a long time, for the most part.  In fact I feel like superman, as the lisinopril made my muscles feel weak but I had been on it for so long that I'd gotten used to it, but now being off of it I feel like I'm really strong and things I had already gotten used to lifting now seem lighter than ever.  I also have more energy and stamina than in a long time.  I had convinced myself I was just in bad shape, despite efforts to the contrary, but now i can see that the medicine was just weighing me down and making me tire and fatigue quicker than usual.  My pulse has slowed down and regulated (used to usually rest about 100, and if I would stand up and walk around it'd go to about 120, I'd be out of breath, and once I caught my breath I would still only get it to go down to 100.  Now when I'm at rest my pulse is around 55-60 and when I stand up it's usually around 70 or 80 or so and even when I'm working usually stays below 100.  If you're wondering how I keep track of all that when I'm working and such it comes from playing guitar to a metronome constantly:I know what 100, 80, and 60 bpm sounds like.)

Unfortunately, I'm still getting bouts of my chest feeling tight and my head feeling like there's pressure on it.  Also sometimes my ears pop.  It comes randomly, and the amount of time it lingers varies.  I really think it's only nerves more than anything though.  Seems odd for blood pressure to randomly spike for no reason when I'm just standing there doing my job out of nowhere, but having panic attacks out of nowhere for no reason used to be my trademark signature move.  I'm thinking that just the simple fact of knowing that I'm no longer taking a medicine for my heart that I used to take (whether I needed to or not) is just causing my anxiety to resurface again.

Also the fact that it only seems to happen when I'm thinking about it is a pretty big tip off, lol.

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#780967
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If you need to B*tch about something... this is the place
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Indeed.  I haven't started getting lightheaded since I quit taking it, I was occasionally getting it before when I was taking it (only occasionally and usually only when standing up suddenly... probably just a sudden drop in BP) and it has stopped since I quit taking it.


You're probably right about the chest tightness.  My guess is that it is mainly caused by anxiety of knowing I'm not taking medicine that I've been used to taking for 3 and a half years.

And I suspect you're right about my doctor agreeing, seeing as when I saw her a year ago she said I could quit taking it if I wanted to.  :)  A year ago I was just at a time where I was suffering constant panic attacks and the thought of changing something like that was too scary so I opted to keep everything the same.  Truth be told I wouldn't have stopped taking it now if they hadn't refused my refill, but I'm starting to be glad that they did.  I'm still having bad anxiety, but I'm starting to see some physical benefits of not taking it (and I had become so used to the side effects I'd forgotten they weren't normal.  I was so used to getting out of breath and having an irregular heartbeat I'd convinced myself that I was just in horrible physical condition (which I'm really not in too bad of shape which I can see now that I'm not taking it anymore) and that I just had a weird heartbeat)

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#780945
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If you need to B*tch about something... this is the place
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Well my pharmacy won't refill my blood pressure medicine anymore (lisinopril 10 mg) and says I'll have to talk to my doctor.  I've been off of it for a few days now and I'm starting to think I'd be better off just not taking it any more.  It wasn't ever dangerously high to begin with, just a little higher than they'd like for it to be.  I know it's best to talk to a doctor before getting off of medicine and probably would want me to wean off, but meh, if I die from not taking such a low dose of a medicine then I probably didn't have much of a life span anyway.

Since I've quit, I feel better in some ways and worse in others.  I feel like there's a knot in my chest and slight pressure in my head.  No pain though, just a tight feeling.  Most likely either a withdrawal from the med or just anxiety/nerves from simply knowing I'm not taking my medicine.  But I feel better in that my heartbeat feels much more regular.  (when I was on the medicine it would speed up and slow down frequently, which while it's a normal side effect of the medicine it was very annoying and it made me feel weird at times.  Don't miss that) And I don't have a palpitation anymore which I had while taking the medicine (best way to describe it would be an uncomfortable awareness of my own heartbeat), as well as I no longer get dizzy or lightheaded upon standing up or get out of breath as easily, also my muscles feel alot stronger now, lifting the same objects at work now feels much easier than it did when I was on the medicine (which I was on for three years).  So I'm hoping that in a few days my system will adjust and I will lose the feeling of tightness/tenseness and will just simply have the benefits of not having the medicine, which I'm not entirely sure I needed to begin with but nevertheless developed a dependency from being on it so long.  I'm hoping that without taking it my system will adapt and lower my BP on it's own.  The highest it ever was without the medicine was 143/85 and that was a high it wasn't usually even that high, and with the medicine it was about 130/78 most of the time, and I kindof think that being on this medicine at such a young age (early 20's) was merely hampering my body's natural ability to fight BP.  It was only high to begin with because I was smoking K2, which I haven't done in over two years now.