Possessed

I don't have any, but my cousin has the Hylian shield from the Legend of Zelda tattooed on his arm.  It's pretty sweet.  I wouldn't want that, per se, but I wouldn't mind having just the triforce.  Not that I ever will.

My dad has the phrase "Let Go" in Elvish (from Tolkien) along with a dove tattooed on his arm, in reference to his wife and my mother who left him for no reason and broke his heart.

darth_ender said:

I know you don't believe in God,

Actually, I do.  Sortof, anyway.

Please, I've said this before, you must get help.  Obviously your work is important to you, but you need to take the time off and get to the hospital. 

I agree that that would be helpful, but it just really isn't in the cards right now.  I just got this promotion, so I'm not taking time off already.  The odds of me getting the time off to get help (which I couldn't afford anyway) are pretty slim.  Even if I could get time off from work, which I couldn't, I wouldn't be able to afford any help.

 I do appreciate the thoughts guys.  And woah, Trident.  Good to see you came back.

Well, as much as I still think about trying to kill myself, I really don't think that I will be pulling another stunt like that.  For the simple reason that when it didn't work, the way all that shit I took made me feel was SOOOO AWFUL... I'd rather just suffer through life than have to worry about ever feeling that way again, because any other failed suicide attempt would likely be just as painful, so at least the fear of what the failed attempt got me should probably keep me from trying again.

It is.

I tried to kill myself the other night.  I took 15 vics, it didn't work, for which I am somewhat thankful.  I don't even know what is wrong.  All I can think about is suicide.  I got a promotion at work a few weeks ago, and I got a raise for it today and I'm due for another raise on October 1st, and yet no matter how well things might seem on the outside, on the inside I'm crumbling.  I'm getting a lot of respect and praise at work, but people don't see that I carry a couple one shooters of tequila in my pocket and drink them in the bathrooms periodically.  They don't know that I get high on all my breaks just to keep from breaking down and crying in front of everybody.  Sure there's a few people that know I get high and that I drink, but with the exception of one (aforementioned) they don't know how bad it is.  I'm not sure what to do.

RicOlie_2 said:

DuracellEnergizer said:

Salt and pepper -- which is the male, which is the female?

 If I recall correctly from Blue's Clues, it's Mr. Pepper and Mrs. Salt. But I could have that backwards.

 What I don't understand is how they made paprika.  I think Mrs. Salt has some explaining to do.

Whoops.

https://soundcloud.com/jacob-martin-28/jacob-martin-suicide

Possessed said:

Amid a seemingly endless stream of (internal) emotional distress, I made this one. 

 Ahh, here's one I just made that does reflect it.  Unfortunately it isn't very good, and it sounds quite ugly at times (though this was partially on purpose), but I thought I'd share it anyway.

Both actually, and I just got a promotion, and am possibly in the running for another one.   Are they related?  Probably not...

Indeed.  I'm interested in making music, not just 'rocking out'.  Not that good music can't rock, but there should be more.

Leonardo said:

as soon as my mind tells me I may sit down and have a beer.

 Why wait?  Anytimes a good time to have a beer.  Especially before work!

Bands are a real mess.  I've just about had it with these fuckers that won't leave me alone.  Last night the drummer got snippy and said something like "I'm getting really tired of you ducking us".  So... STOP FUCKING ASKING ME.

I'm most attracted to women who are between 27 and 40 it seems.  It just seems like I connect more with them and can actually have nice conversations.  20 year old girls just get on my nerves, and honestly I think women look their best at about 35.

I know what you mean.  There's a metal band around here that is just DYING for me to join them.  And it's honestly annoying the shit out of me.  Every member of the band messages me on facebook like 5 times a day trying to get me to come play with them.  If there was only some way I could get them to understand that every time they pester me they are hurting their chances of getting me.  They are actually pretty good, but while I love metal, I like to do more.  Of course the music I play is very metallic, but I like it to have influences of pop, blues, symphonic, and possibly even ambient all slapped on top of a metal base.  (as you can probably tell).  Of course, all my songs are covers as well, so far anyway, but I still try to do things original with them to incorporate all of my elements.  If it's a purely metal song I want to cover, I will try to find a way to bring symphonic and pop elements to it.  If it's a classic rock song, I find a way to heavy it up but also make it symphonic.

The real dealbreaker for me with this band that wants me is that they were always pestering me to write a song for them.  Well I wrote one, and none of them can play it, and to me it isn't hard at all and I can't teach it to them.  It's not that they aren't good enough to play it, I just can't seem to get through to them, and I learn songs extremely fast so I get impatient, and I don't want to be that guy that bosses and bullies the other band mates around, so I just feel it's best if  I stay solo unless I can find somebody else that learns fast.  Or I might just record the song myself and send it to them and maybe they will understand it.  I know all this sounds like I'm an egostical, stuck up asshole but it's really not the case.  I don't *want* to be condescending, and it's not so much that I play things better than other people, it's just that I can learn new things way quicker than most people so I have to fight really hard to not get impatient, and I don't want to be impatient with people.

I've been really into recording songs from the mega man games lately (as evidenced by the last song I just posted), because even though they are from nintendo and playstation games, they perfectly capture the feeling I like to create.  They have a metallic base, but they have a symphonic edge and the melodies have lots of pop feeling.  I love it.

And three quarters!

TV's Frink said:

Well there's today's make Frink feel old post.

 Nah!  I'm not saying that 30's is old, just that it's older than I.

And the biggest barrier would be that she is like 37 I think and I'm 21...  (Although to me it makes sense for a man to date an older woman to avoid either party being a widower since women typically live longer than men, although not by 16 years...)

Thanks man!  I do try to play with some local acts when I can, but I just really don't feel it.  None of them are very good...

Well, I guess it's theoretically *possible*, but it doesn't seem likely enough for me to get my hopes up about it.

Amid a seemingly endless stream of (internal) emotional distress, I made this one.  Not that it reflects it or anything, just thought it was cool.  At least my production values are getting better.   https://soundcloud.com/jacob-martin-28/x-1

I feel afraid that my previous encounter with the older woman may have fucked me up.  I'm now finding it difficult to find sexual attraction to anybody except for another, older woman.  She's closer to my age than the first, and better looking, and an overall far better human being with better morals and is much kinder to me.  But the problem is that this is obviously not going to go anywhere, but I can't abandon the feeling of it.  We work together, and honestly we're quite close.  We talk alot.  Sometimes we talk outside of work, and we've even gotten drinks a few times, as friends.  We playfully flirt with each other sometimes (but this is at work, so it's like 'office flirting').  She's really a great person and she's been wonderful to me in supporting me with all my problems.  But I'm not really sure what to do at this point.  Not that being attracted to older women is necessarily a horrible thing, but it can be when you know there's nothing you can do about it.  (by older I mean 35-ish).  We're like best friends, and I'm not sure what to do about that.  As I've said, we've grown close, and it's two sided.  She is not, at least that I am aware of, sexually attracted to me (at least not any more than what any 35-ish woman would be to a somewhat decent looking 21 year old... not being conceited, just stating my point), but she does depend on me for emotional support at times and she does like me alot.  I just don't have the heart to tell her that we can't talk any more or be friends, that would hurt her, and I really just don't want to do that.  And I can't ask her to stop flirting with me either, because that would also signify that something was wrong and might make it hard for her to talk with me, and that's also not something that I want.  I do not wish to cause her any pain as she has been nothing but wonderful to me, but I'm not sure where to go from here.

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DuracellEnergizer said:

All good things must come to an end.

 But that doesn't explain why team Ollie had to end.

But he's a prayer warrior frink.  A WARRIOR.  Show some respect.