Mike O

Sigh. I knew it was too good to be true.

It’s time to face facts: Disney (Who’ve had revisionist tendencies of their own: Song of the South, Fantasia, The Lion King, Beauty and the Beast) bought this property specifically to produced NEW content which has been a goldmine for them. They don’t care about something from the past with a niche audience. It’s time to just face up to if: if we aren’t getting it for the 40th anniversary, the OOT is dead forever.

darth_ender said:

Abilify is a miracle drug in many ways! Works so well for so many of my patients! It also comes in two different types of long-acting injections if you just want to take your medicine once a month or every six weeks. I’m glad you’ve finally found something that works for you! I don’t always reply, but I follow how you’re doing. Keep it up!

Well, it was. I feel like I’m backsliding. This is the same thing that happened when the boost to my Prozac temporarily made me feel better. I’ve just been popping it as a pill, along with my Prozac and Klonopin. Much as I’d like to say “Oh, the medication made me better!” There’s still a ways to go, and hopefully the psychiatry will help too. I hope I’m making steps in the right direction and making an effort to feel better and not being too reliant on medication. I really do. This is going to be a long road, but God willing, I’ll come to the end of it different (whether I like it or not), but at least not worse. Hopefully even better.

How does it react with alcohol? I rarely drink, but if I ever do, I’d like to make sure I’m not killing myself.

Warbler said:

Mike O said:

Man, I was scared to take that Abilify, but WOW, it’s helped more than anything else has so far. I’ve got an appointment with a psychiatrist next month too!

I’m very glad to here this. Good luck with your psychiatrist appointment.

Well, like I said, much as I’d like to say “Well, I’m better now because of the medication,” as I mentioned, that’s clearly not working out a well (or as long) as I hoped. Either way, I’ve got this psychiatrist appointment now, we’ll see how that goes.

My dad pointed out something intelligent too: his doctor, while a nice guy (if a little odd), is even older than he is. I don’t have a family doctor/GP because I’ve always just used urgent care. This is particularly a shame, because such a person would be ideal to get to know me and recommend a therapist. So he’s suggested trying to find someone a little more in my age bracket, which I think is wise. It also make me a little nervous about this psychiatrist, but who knows? One day at a time is hard when some days are pretty good for the first time in a long time and other have me sliding back to the worse days.

Man, I was scared to take that Abilify, but WOW, it’s helped more than anything else has so far. I’ve got an appointment with a psychiatrist next month too!

I’m sorry about what Possessed is talking about. It really makes me sad just to read it.

Good news: Whatever they removed from grandfather is benign, thank God. He’s old, but hopefully he has years left in him.

Bad news: The lease expired and my parents had to borrow $700 from to make a down-payment on my dad’s new car. I’m trying to think of a non-asshole way to tell them they need to pay me back at some point. My dad lost his job. I understand it will be a while. It’s a hard time. We can barely make ends meet, and I’m doing what I can with my shitty job. My OCD spiked up again today. I’m trying the psychiatrist again on my next day off. I need to speak to the doctor because I’m worried about the side effects; Klonopin is making me sleep through my days off and I’m really concerned about the weight gain from the Abilify that I haven’t started it yet. Hopefully he won’t be pissed. Work is hell, as usual. The OCD really got worse today after a better patch. Fighting with my parents is so not what I need right now, but everything is so tense with the financial situation. The drugs have completely killed my libido, which is a whole separate thing. I’m worried about Possessed, I wish I had some good advice.

Butch Trucks, for all of you Allman Brothers fans, just passed away.

I’ve tried Google, but it’s not as useful as I hoped. Not to mention the versions of Deep Purple’s Made in Japan. This stuff is harder to keep track of than you’d think.

I am disappointed at the lack of nerd knowledge for my answers 😉.

Little update on my grandfather: apparently he went back to the ER, worried becasue the place where they’d removed the drain from his neck was oozing puss. They checked, and he doesn’t have a fever, so hopefully, that means that it’s not infected. They cleaned it and sent him home.

So I was on Spotify the other day the Allman Brothers Band’s debut album was listed as having an alternative “beginnings” mix for each song. I can’t seek to find this version on CD anywhere, what is it? Apparently there’s a deluxe edition of Idlewile South containing the full Ludlow Garage concert, thus negating my need to buy the Ludlow Garage release if I get. Also, there’s a new deluxe release of Brothers ans Sisters with a full Winterland concert. I currently own Beginnings, so what’s this alternate release of the debut album with the "1973 Beginnings mixes? Obviously I can sell my copy of Beginnings if I get it and the deluxe Idlewile South, but I can’t figure out what the former is. I can’t seem to find any special edition CD release? I have the deluxe editions of At Filmore East and Eat a Peach, and the Dreams boxed set. Would there be anything new to me on the The Complete Filmore East Recordings?

Speaking of Duane Allman, what’s the difference between the deluxe, super deluxe, and sessions releases of Layla? Does one comprise them all? To ease my wallet?

Is there any way to get the third disc of the super-deluxe version of the Stones Sticky Fingers without getting the huge-ass set with the vinyl that I don’t need that costs like a week’s pay to get the Leeds concert?

Anyone have a fucking clue when Bob Dylan: The Complete Album Collection: Volume 2 comes out? I swear to God, the moment I buy all the damn Bootleg Series Albums, it’ll come out. Or when volume 2 of Springsteen’s albums comes out, for that matter?

I’m almost 30, I live with my parents, I’ve fucked up my life, pissed away 30 years and a college education, and work a shitty dead-end job because I’m a cowardly piece of shit.

Psychiatrist still hasn’t called back, but my grandfather’s surgery seems to have gone tentatively well. He’s 83, healing is going to be slow, and hopefully there won’t be further complications, but for now it looks good. I’m still scared to death, but God willing, I’ll get a few more years with him.

My grandfather, age 82, goes in for his surgery on Wednesday. I’m a nervous wreck, if anything happens to him, I fear it’ll break me beyond repair. I’m still sliding all over the place with my OCD or whatever it is, sometimes feeling OK, sometimes feeling like I want to secretly grab another of my pills. Work isn’t helping; it’s extremely stressful, especially on weekends, and certain authority figures cause me intense stress and are allowed to do what they do with impunity. There isn’t a damned thing I can do about it, it frustrates me, and makes the anxiety and OCD worse.

BUT there is big news. I got a hold of a psychiatrist the doctor recommended today, or more accurately, his secretary. I left her my insurance information, she said she’d call back today (now yesterday) or tomorrow (now today). I’m scared shitless, I feel like a kid on the first day of school, but I did do something. Hopefully, it was a positive step. I don’t know because I’m scared out of my mind. But I did do something.

Bingowings said:

I have this problem at work, with people seeing suicide and suicidal thoughts as selfishness so I do sympathise. Mental illness is like any other illness or injury so blaming someone for being close to death for being mentally ill is as helpful and as compassionate as blaming a person with cancer for having a near scrape with death.
It’s not clever or grown up and you can get your relatives to talk to me about if it helps.
It is amusing to outsiders how Americans abuse the term rest in the context of bodily functions. Sorry to hear you relatives lost their jobs in that way. Currently that wouldn’t be legal in this country but post Brexit who knows what workers rights we will lose.

In this particular case, it wasn’t the mental issues. It was some sort of flu, and it was damn sure nasty. Depression is rampant in my family, so they’re sympathetic , but my uncle was attempting some tough love. My family is right that I have to become more active if I’m ever going to fight this, but I felt a little hurt by his approach. My brother’s job was temporary anyway, but my dad is struggling with the unemployment people and my mother is going to have a breakdown. And then there’s my grandpa…

Tyrphanax said:

Mike O said:

My grandfather’s surgery has been moved to later in January. My mom had him write out a will, she’s pretty convinced it could be the end. Losing him right now might break me beyond repair. God willing, it’ll go well and I’ll get a few more years with him. Saw my dad’s doctor again. He didn’t boost up the Prozac like I was hoping he would, but prescribed something else and gave me a list of psychiatrists to call, which I guess I’ll do on my next day off. The obsessiveness is still circling like a vulture in my head. I had a rousing flu the last few days which had me expelling stuff I ate in third grade, so that was fucking fun. I’m back at work now, stressed as usual. I had a row my brother because I guess that he felt that vomiting and shitting at the same time weren’t sufficient reason for me to monopolize the restroom, and my uncle really went off on my when I confessed that my brother had called me earlier convinced that I was shcidial, and gave me a rather vicious talking to about how I don’t consider the effect I can have on others with my feelings. I get it, but thought it was NOT a good way of approaching things. Anyway, I’m back at work. Oh, yay. My dad and my brother both lost their jobs, and they’re revoking my holiday pay for being Sick.

Good to hear from you again. Just hang in there. Definitely phone up a few of those psychiatrists and find one you really mesh with and can be open with.

I’m sorry that some people don’t have the best grasp of how these things work, and I’m really sorry that this country continually fails people with mental health issues. It’s pathetic and embarrassing and it’s going to get worse before it gets better sadly.

But you just hang in there and keep moving forward, man.

I know, fighting and moving forward just gets tiresome. Literally, in the case of this new drug, which we’ll get to.

Tyrphanax said:

Jetrell Fo said:

Mike O said:

I’ll respond at length to the posts, but new controversy: I’m having serious misgivings about the medicine prescribed. This is getting…interesting.

Make sure to let your physician know. There are other meds that may better sit with you system and be able to better help you move forward.

You have my complete support Mike.

Yep, lots of different meds. Like therapists, it’s definitely a good idea to find one that works best with you.

He has me on a Klonopin generic. 1 mg twice a day. It made me sleep like 18 hours yesterday. Today, it does seem to be helping somewhat, but it’s a benzo, and I’m really worried about addiction potential. Sometimes it makes me kind of numb to stuff. In some ways, that’s nice, but in others, it makes me kind of uncomfortable. He wants me to start Abilify, but I’m scared as hell to mix all of these together. I’m going to give the Klonopin a week and talk to him about it before I start the next, I think. Much as I want to feel better, I worry that messing with all of this stuff is a little dangerous. And I’m still trying to find a psychiatrist. I hope I’m not too reliant on the drugs. And I’m still on the Prozac too, but that’s been most of my life and I’m not too worried about that one.

Yeah, I’m seriously starting to get concerned about the side effects here. This is spooky.

I’ll respond at length to the posts, but new controversy: I’m having serious misgivings about the medicine prescribed. This is getting…interesting.

My grandfather’s surgery has been moved to later in January. My mom had him write out a will, she’s pretty convinced it could be the end. Losing him right now might break me beyond repair. God willing, it’ll go well and I’ll get a few more years with him. Saw my dad’s doctor again. He didn’t boost up the Prozac like I was hoping he would, but prescribed something else and gave me a list of psychiatrists to call, which I guess I’ll do on my next day off. The obsessiveness is still circling like a vulture in my head. I had a rousing flu the last few days which had me expelling stuff I ate in third grade, so that was fucking fun. I’m back at work now, stressed as usual. I had a row my brother because I guess that he felt that vomiting and shitting at the same time weren’t sufficient reason for me to monopolize the restroom, and my uncle really went off on my when I confessed that my brother had called me earlier convinced that I was shcidial, and gave me a rather vicious talking to about how I don’t consider the effect I can have on others with my feelings. I get it, but thought it was NOT a good way of approaching things. Anyway, I’m back at work. Oh, yay. My dad and my brother both lost their jobs, and they’re revoking my holiday pay for being Sick.

RIP princess.

suspiciouscoffee said:

Mike O said:

lovelikewinter said:

Mike O said:

These rumors just keep flying, but still nothing concrete. I’m just finding it hard to get my damned hopes up. I’d download Harmy, but I’m scared of getting arrested.

You wont get arrested. The person who shared it would be more likely to get arrested. I’ve downloaded a ton of torrents over the years and never had an issue.

Almost all of the fan-edits of films I want are of movies I own at least one copy of, and sometimes several. My brother is a lawyer trying to get into Internet intellectual property law and says that it can be a pretty big fine if I get caught, but not arrested. Thanks, Atticus. Millions of people torrent stuff, but I swear, I’d be the damned one who got caught.

Your brother is a lawyer named Atticus?

He went to law school, I called him Atticus sarcastically. It would be so cool if he was a lawyer named Atticus though.

lovelikewinter said:

Mike O said:

These rumors just keep flying, but still nothing concrete. I’m just finding it hard to get my damned hopes up. I’d download Harmy, but I’m scared of getting arrested.

You wont get arrested. The person who shared it would be more likely to get arrested. I’ve downloaded a ton of torrents over the years and never had an issue.

Almost all of the fan-edits of films I want are of movies I own at least one copy of, and sometimes several. My brother is a lawyer trying to get into Internet intellectual property law and says that it can be a pretty big fine if I get caught, but not arrested. Thanks, Atticus. Millions of people torrent stuff, but I swear, I’d be the damned one who got caught.

These rumors just keep flying, but still nothing concrete. I’m just finding it hard to get my damned hopes up. I’d download Harmy, but I’m scared of getting arrested.

A lot of people here, too many to name, have been kind and supportive to me. So thanks.

I hope you guys have a good one. I wish I was. There’s no reason I shouldn’t; I have a loving family, a fairly easy workday, and so many blessings. But depression and OCD are selfish. And they make me selfish, and take away from what should be a happy time of the year. But I really you’re all having a much better one than I am. Thanks for all of your continued support and kindness.

I’m using Ethernet. It improves it, but only sometimes. I don’t have this issue with the wifi on any other devices in the house.

So I bought my dad a Smart TV. Unfortunately, it’s kind of a pile. It manages OK with Netflix and Hulu and Amazon, but while it can run the former and the latter at 1080, when I try to run VUDU, I can barely get one bar. I even tried a wired Ethernet connection through my DVR which AT&T say is a no-no. It works slightly better, but only sporadically. Maybe VUDU uses more bandwidth and the decompression is too much strain on the TV’s software or something. My Blu-ray player, wired PC, and Chromecast don’t have this issue, not do any of my mobile devices. Unfortunately, I can’t exactly open up the TV and put in a better processor. My WiFi is fairly strong, 10-20 when it’s working well (Although we’ll be changing providers soon). Is there any damn thing I can do to get the thing to handle the strain? Especially now that VUDU have asshole-ish-ly removed the HD 720 option, leaving me with only HDX that the TV can’t handle and SD.

Any advice?

My grandfather, age 82, is going to have undergo major surgery on a delicate part of his neck. After his fall recently, he’s not in good shape. My mother is fairly convinced that this is going to be the last Christmas I’m going to get with him. Needless to say, I feel like with everything else, I’m about to come apart. I’ve never been prepared for this kind of loss even though I’ve always known that it’s there somewhere, lurking. Maybe it’ll go well and I’ll get a few more years with him, God willing. But frankly, I dare not hope at this point. God help me, what a time to lose my faith.