Possessed

I feel like I'm developing personal problems of an alcohol/drug related nature.  It hasn't caused any problems of a "concrete" nature, like no job loss or anything like that.  And I don't do any hard drugs and I don't get shitfaced drunk.  But I'm always drinking and I always have a joint or something similar going except when I'm actually at work.  And while the weed itself might not be all that horrible for me, I feel like the frequency of consumption is damaging me mentally.  And the same with drinking.  I'm never "drunk" but I'm always buzzed.  Every day, the MOMENT I wake up, which is a nightmare in and of itself (not necessarily hung over, just totally windblown and lifeless feeling), the moment I open my eyes and get out of bed I immediately smoke some weed, and I mean immediately.  Then I drink a couple beers then smoke some more.  I go about my day, and literally only an hour or so later I'll be smoking again.  Whenever I go in to work, I smoke and have a beer right before I go in.  On my 15 minute break I smoke.  On my lunch break I smoke and drink some more.  On my last 15 minute, you guessed it, I smoke.  Then guess what I do after work?  Drink and smoke.  And record music and play guitar, which is positive enough but I am ALWAYS shitfaced when I'm doing it.  I'm never coherent when I'm recording.  I only drink 2 or 3 beers at a time, but I drink those 2 or 3 beers very constantly and every few hours or so.  And I smoke weed constantly all day and am very stoned at all times, until I go to sleep. And I often wake in the middle of the night and smoke a little bit to go back to sleep.  Mentally it's wearing me out, and I'm becoming very depressed and introverted.  Physically I feel like I'm just running out of steam, out of energy.  I don't feel tired exactly, just sortof rundown.  I still care very much about other people's wellbeing and my friends, the problem is I'm getting to where I don't care at all about myself, only others.

I don't really know why I'm sharing this with you guys, I just wanted to vent a little bit.  I'm not really sure what to do about it.  Can you call a guy who never gets drunk bit is ALWAYS buzzed an alcoholic?  Can you call a guy who never does drugs but is never NOT smoking weed a drug addict?  I don't know the answers to that, but I can tell you this lifestyle is wearing me out and I'm losing steam.  

Just venting.  I know there isn't anything anyone here can say or do to help, so feel free to ignore it and bitch about something else.  :P

Well SCREW YOU.  THERE ARE NO JOKES IN THIS THREAD.  ONLY PAIN.

On second thought I guess there's room for jokes too, you may proceed.  

Me.  I just am interested in computers and film editing.  If you met me in real life, I assure you you wouldn't think I was a girl or girlish.  I have a lot of friends in real life that know nothing about my internet life.

There are a ton of places we can all do this in off topic, is it really necessary to have it spill over into a thread about my edit as well?

Also, thanks Frink.

http://www.fanedit.org/forums/showthread.php?4629-Return-of-the-Jedi-Possessed-Cut

Thank you kindly.

Well I was going to update my thread over at FE.org, but it's been so long since I've posted there and I had so few posts to begin with I apparently it's been so long since it was updated that it's been moved to the Inactive section, and I am a very low ranking member over there and I can't post in it.  Does anybody more comfortable and regular over there know how I can change it to active and start posting in it again?

Leonardo said:

 Meh, the REAL Super Mario Bros. 2 is better.  This wasn't even supposed to be a mario game.  Don't get me wrong, it's a great game, but it doesn't hold a torch to the japanese super mario 2, which to this day is the only super mario bros. sidescroller that even still challenges me.  (official anyway)

A man without a diaper, the world is a sad place indeed.

I've heard "Depends" really help with feeling soiled.

Dude.  http://originaltrilogy.com/forum/topic.cfm/The-Unofficial-Complete-REVISITED-SAGA-Ideas-and-Random-Discussion-Thread/topic/14610/

And you'll probably get made fun of for posting about it there too!

Should we call Fox News?

I was 16 when I decided to become a treehouse.

DrCrowTStarwars said:

 Yeah in my dad it was understood that was part of growing up. 

 Do what now?

He said he plans to use improper punctuation on all his posts, so won't this make you feel compelled to point them all out?  Or is it just incorrect homonym usage that bugs you?

Meant it only in jest my good fellow.

Yes, AND Frog protection.

No I think he's on to something, we should imprison all children who bully for life.  It makes sense.  If they go to prison, they should learn not to bully really fast.  Then they can use what they've learned in their next life.  They might be reincarnated as a frog, but you win some you lose some.  At least they'll be one of those peaceful frogs.

Perhaps I could use the emperor scene there, then take one of the later scenes (there are 2 or 3) of Vader and Emps talking in the throne room and put it where the emperor scene used to be, then just join together the scenes that that scene used to break up?  Perhaps cutting them down so that it doesn't feel like an overly long scene.

DrCrowTStarwars said:

Yeah a a decaying corpsE giveS off a much better vibe.

 Actually, it's Regan from "The Exorcist" in her fully *POSSESSED* form.  See what I did there?

It doesn't make it seem like the 1850's, and I was also being sarcastic.  I should also probably change my avatar because now that I think about it it does sort of give off a "church burny" vibe.

Also for the record, DrCrow, I'm sorry I used to the word excellent to you, and I'm sorry that I could not read your mind and understand the rest of the story that you didn't bother mentioning that would have influenced me to not use the word.  It's my fault really, my telepathy has gotten a bit rusty.  It's understandable to ignore somebody and say they want to destroy all christians when they use the word "excellent", especially when in context of a story they only have the least important part of.  

Then you should probably put Fink on ignore until you snap out of it! :P

Mail them a letter that says "NO INTERNATIONAL BIDDING YOU DUMB FUCK"

Oh I'm not blaming the actor for looking awkward in an 85 pound suit.  I'm blaming them making him wear an 85 pound suit.  Looked cool while he was standing still, not so much when he was fighting people.

The movies were pretty good overall though.

And I agree that Keaton was a damn good batman.

I can't exactly put my finger on it, but there are some shots of him in the suit that just don't look right.  The common offenders are shots where he is just walking from point a to point b.  Commonly walking from an open area to a corner to crouch or hide... he just looks awkward.