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I have to make the decision to go on a Mormon mission or not at the end of high school. Not fun
Do it, darth. Is it hard? Of course. Was it worth it? More than you’ll ever know… Unless you go. I’m so grateful I did.
Sorry but I don’t believe in any of it at all. I find many of our beliefs sexist and inherently wrong. I have now become agnostic. The stress of the decision to go on a mission is entirely because of the emotional pain and humiliation I will go through my community and my family. My father has been a bishop and just got called as Stake President. It’s not the inner turmoil of whether it’s true, it’s the inner turmoil of what consequences I want. I’m extremely jealous of those born into good hearted agnostic homes with a supportive family who won’t force you to believe something that they think is crucial to if you can live with them forever again.
I’d urge you not to do it. Don’t sell out your principals.
That’s what keeps me leaning towards that decision. In the end I have to take a stand for what I believe and if that means them hating me and seeing me as a dissapointment then I’ll have to deal with that pain. Thanks for the kind words everyone
It’s been a while since I previewed that reply and I doubt I realized at the time that you were faltering in your faith. I don’t think any member of the Church or your family would encourage you to go on a mission if you don’t have the faith, much less if you identify as agnostic. I of course wish you saw things differently, but I always respect a person who is honest and not judgmental in his/her beliefs.
