I seriously don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. Life really is putting me in the shitter.
Go outside. Stop spending so much time online. Go to the gym. Look for real, genuine friends (not internet “friends”). Look for a meaningful, long term relationship, not just getting off. If you’re unemployed, get a job. Stop watching porn. None of this is new to you because you’ve talked about stuff like this in this thread before, but you have to stop talking about it and start acting. Nobody’s going to pull you out of your misery but yourself. It’s way easier said than done, but you will do it eventually. Your attitude that you can’t go on much longer like this is correct. Your suicidal ideation is not because you want to die, but because you don’t want to continue living the way you are. Every day you indulge in the behaviors that make you miserable achieves nothing but delaying your rehabilitation by a day.
My sexual fetishes and sex drive are becoming a damned serious problem.
And for the love of God, stop posting shit like this on a public forum and just fix it.
Actually great advice.