The Place to Go for Emotional Support — Page 80

It just occurred to me earlier today that I am one miserable man.

Me too.

EDIT: Well, I’m not a man yet, but still.

Wow, look at all of us sadbois.

I’m applying for jobs again because I need a new one. I never have been fired, I just work myself up and realize I can’t handle the job I have anymore and look for a new one. It’s so stressful and extra stress is dangerous for someone as on the edge of crazy as I am.

I never quit till I got something else. It’s just stressful to have a new job every few months.

I have a lot of the difficulties/problems you guys have.

Job search is going shitty. I think I’ll just stay where I am and be miserable because I know full well that I’m not going to enjoy anything else anyway.

Rogue-theX said:

I have a lot of the difficulties/problems you guys have.

Yeah, I’ll echo this.
I really don’t know how I come across on this forum. I think from a small distance I seem like I’m doing well. But I’m really not. I’m blessed with a few good things in my life, but the ice they rest on is as thin as possible and there are cracks all around. Any time, any day everything could fall through and I’m sick to death of living this way. I just can’t take it much longer.

ChainsawAsh said:

I find a lot of the time, if I’m feeling more miserable than usual I feel like I have to make a big change like that, but if I just hang on for a couple days, that feeling goes away. Hopefully either that happens for you, or the job hunt starts to go better.

No my mood doesn’t work that way. Every now and then I’ll be optimistic for an hour or two but other than that I’m horribly unhappy with everything all the time. Job switching doesn’t help but it would be nice to work somewhere where I wouldn’t have to drive as far.

I think I might actually be losing my mind. I’m kind of okay with that.

ChainsawAsh said:

As someone who has more personality-related similarities with you than I do the vast majority of other people…you should definitely consider seeing a therapist sooner rather than later.

Believe it or not I did call one but I hung up on that motherfucker because I didn’t like the tone she gave me.

What’s the matter, Warb?

I’m depressed too! We have so much in common.

Handman said:

Me too. I realized everyone I thought was important, isn’t. I felt pretty alone before, but now I really am alone.

To be completely honest with you, I like you. I doubt that’s worth much, but I hope it means something.

Damn compulsions. Working retail during the holiday season is so fucking stressful. And it still spike up my obsessive thoughts from time-to-time. Objectively, I’m better in some ways, but I’m so tired of this stuff returning and interfering with my life. I’m also just NOT putting in the work. I’m going to be blunt: I’m getting fat and I’m not excercising. I’m not practing what my therapist is recommending. I’m simply not putting the work I should be. It’s one thing to say that. It’s another to act on any of it.

Sorry to all of the lonely folks here. For what it’s worth, which is essentially nothing, I’m glad to know everyone here. You’ve all been kind and supportive and helped me move in the right direction, and I’m appreciative and for the best for everyone here.