The whole reason I brought up political confusion (again, I want to keep political discussion a minimum as per the rules) is because I’ve been using politics as a way to cope with anxiety and POSSIBLY depression or at least something very similar to it (I don’t know for sure, a lot of my symptoms are similar to depression but I haven’t been properly diagnosed, so I don’t know for sure and will not outright say I have depression unless proven so. The very sad reality is that my symptoms must be treated very slowly and carefully, unfortunately, I have been proven mostly negative for medication due to the possibility of unwanted negative side effects) and now I’ve turned into a delusional conspirator on the edge of a mental breakdown that constantly flip flops between the left, right, centre, and especially the far right and far left, ad nauseam.
I want to take a break from the internet but ended up with horrible withdrawal symptoms and extreme loneliness (and yes I am actively looking for more real life friends my age).
I am serious, the treatment is EXTREMELY slow and VERY painful, and my family seriously ponders whether or not they should take the risk and give me medication)
So no, I have not ignored any advice on this thread (I have honestly acted out on what SparkySwyer told me to do, with varying success), it’s just that you likely don’t have the full picture of my plight since I choose to keep many things private for my own cyber safety, and as such I do not blame any of you at all for any potential misunderstanding.
IMPORTANT NOTE: My symptoms have recently gotten worse due to the treatment having the “it gets worse before it gets better” principle, and I honestly haven’t felt this rotten since 2020. Unfortunately many things about this are out of my control.