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#1077178
Topic
The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
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TV’s Frink said:

Nobody mocks Mike O here. He doesn’t do anything mockable.

That was never stated by me. He has suffered the affects of such online behavior towards him though and that was part of my point, crap like this thread, stink. Some of you could care less how you treat someone as long as it makes you laugh. You never consider the consequences it might have on others.

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#1077173
Topic
Religion
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one69chev said:

Jetrell Fo said:

DuracellEnergizer said:

Nope, you didn’t fix it for me. I believe there is truth in most (if not all) religions and they are worthy of admiration and respect, but my religious background was Christian and the teachings of Jesus still resonate particularly strongly for me.

I was raised in a Catholic family … my Nana was like the Polish Family Mafia Leader, LOL, but she was awesome!!!

Sounds like a legit Polish Babcia. Did she ever tell you ‘Bądz cicho!’?

She didn’t have to, she kept an aluminum bottle opener that was the size of a salad spoon hanging on the wall by the stove. It was placed there so it would catch the sunlight and would be immediately visible to anyone walking in to the house. She was cool.

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#1077165
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The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
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Mike O said:

I’m on vacation this week. I’ve slept through like half of it. God, I hate living like this.

CatBus said:

Nobody’s replied to you, Mike, but that doesn’t mean we haven’t heard you. There’s just not much we can offer to help, at least me. But we are listening.

Hey, and that’s kind of you. You guys can only do so much, and you aren’t obligated to do much of anything at all. So thanks, is what I’m saying.

People, and by that I suppose I mean nearly everyone, just don’t understand mental illness at a fundamental level. People suffering from it, living with those suffering from it, and pretty much everyone they encounter in their daily lives. They wish for magic wands that can make it go away–medications that are “cures” rather than “managers”, psychotropic drugs without any side-effects, drugs that always work the same way for everyone at every time, unicorn and rainbow stuff. And why shouldn’t they wish for that? Mental illness really is scary. Your mom wants to wave a wand and have her smiling son back, no medicines, no side-effects. And shit, man, it sounds like you’d like that too. You’re just a little closer to the truth of the daily struggle than she is.

I’d fucking love that. Unrealistic as it is, I know how tempting it sounds.

I wouldn’t begrudge people for wishing for things that are never going to happen–it’s a coping mechanism. Not a great one, I agree, but that’s what it is. Explaining the experience of having mental illness to someone else is a Herculean task. But it’s your family. Even if you don’t get it across, it’s worth repeated attempts.

Do your best. It’s the most any of us can hope to do. I can also say if it helps that cracked faith still manages to work pretty well sometimes, although it works differently than the pre-cracked variety.

Lately it’s an obsession with a video about an abortion debate. Let’s just say it’s not a fucking step up. It’s like 100 times worse. Which would be funny if it weren’t destroying me AGAIN.

Tyrphanax said:

Sorry I haven’t been around much lately due to life, but I wanted to echo what CatBus said!

Thanks, Iron Man 😉.

Jetrell Fo said:

Mike O said:

Jetrell Fo said:

Mike O said:

Abilify is up to 10mg. The doctor said I can experiment a little with the Klonopin. My mother is a nervous wreck about sucking down there psychotropics. The side effects so far-fatigue and soreness-suck, and the intrusive thoughts still sort of come and go. I know, it’s been a few days, be patient. But fuck, it’s hard. My fat butt has gained a little weight too, and unhealthy. To be fair, all it does is rain; I may excercise if it ever warms up. God, this is hard. I’m scared of the drugs and the side effects, but when they help even a little, I want to say “gimme more.” Klonopin is a Benzedrine, and I’m really scared of the prospect of addiction. I just want to be fucking normal again.

I don’t see that you’re “sucking” down the psychotropics. You are taking them as prescribed which would be in a timed fashion per day. As for the exercise … there is plenty you can do at home when weather is inclement. If you are truly worried about the Kolonopin then maybe you should just ask for something else due to your fear. As long as you respect the medication and only take it as prescribed you should not be worrying about something that might be helping you.

I’d like to ask what you consider “normal”? Maybe understanding the actual goal you are trying to reach would help your parents and those of us that support you do so better.

“Normal” would be back to the way I was before this happened. With my faith cracked, I don’t know if that’ll ever be possible again. Ever. I’m concerned about the side effects too, sleeping all day and this endless exhaustion. I’m going to tell my doctor about it next time I see him. But then we’re back to square one with the medication roulette. I’m see the actual diagnosing psychologist in a few weeks, so it’s not like I’m relying solely on medicine.

Warning: rant coming. And a long one. Got into it a little bit with my mother last night. Since I’m sleeping too much and frequently lethargic, my mother is upset, and so is my dad, that I’m on too much medication and I’m kind of becoming a zombie. Now, they have a good point. And I’m currently questioning if the medication is helping as much as it should. But I think that they think it’s just my depression, and they both have that. It’s not. It’s also this pseudo-OCD, and I can’t talk to my mother about that at all because of the religious nature of it. It takes time for your body to adjust to medication, and medication has side effects. I get that. And I’ll be honest, both my dad’s doctor and my psychiatrist scare me a little. I’ve never been assertive with authority figures. And the medicine does help. Sometimes. Somewhat. They don’t know how I feel. And it does take time for your body to adjust. But I’ve had that time, they argue. And given that it’s been months, they aren’t wrong. But in a way, I think I secretly like it. Sleep is the ONLY respite I get from this. So if I’m sleeping more, what’s so wrong with that? Other than, you know, sleeping my life away and wasting it. It’s hard to see any further into the future than the end of my shift at work with the condition I’m currently in. I’m just SO sick of fighting. I don’t have the strength to do this day after day, this isn’t much of a kind of living.

“You’re on too much medication!” She says. She’s probably right. I don’t know anymore. But this is a constant battle. Like they said, I’m going to have to exercise every day, work at this every day. Medicine isn’t magic. There’s no simple solution. This just came out of nowhere a year or so ago, prior to which I was fine except for my frustrating inability to move forward with my life. Now there’s this mess. And it’s just not getting better. I say I’m trying. Am I? I am, but not as hard as I should. But that’s hard. It’s hard to fight and live like this every fucking day. I need some way to stabilize it and control it. I’ll never be back to normal. My faith is too cracked now, and too much damage has been done. But maybe I can repair something and try to regain what’s left of my life, rebuild it somehow. But that’s sure a lot easier said than done. It just seems like a no-win situation.

What’s most frustrating is that with my brother’s wedding coming up, my mother is almost angry with me. She insists that I’d better smile through the whole thing, horrified a single picture will really show me, and wants me walking every day because of the damn weight gain she’s alleging she sees from the medicine. I bluntly think this is pretty unfair. I’m hurting. I hurt a lot. And she’s concerned about how I look in public? It’s hard enough to function at work. I’ll be honest, I’m a little bit angry with her that she so damn concerned about public appearance that she isn’t necessarily taking my feelings into consideration as much as she should. Or least is much as I think she should.

I do have one or two questions if you’d consider indulging me. What exactly were you like before you really noticed the change and what do you believe actually tipped the scales and caused the change that is affecting you?

I am sorry that your parents may not be taking this as seriously as you obviously would like them to be. You want them to be parents and not critics. It can be difficult considering the religious factor and maybe whatever their upbringings have brought to the table for them. We ARE here and we ARE listening. Please keep communicating with us as you can.

We support you Mike.

I’m not sure. I was reading a message board a year or so ago and someone made a snarky anti-religious comment, and it all kind of spiraled from there. Like I’ve said, I wasn’t exactly super-religious to begin with, so I don’t know why this happened all of a sudden. It just came out of nowhere.

MikeO spoke about his experience with such things and we show him all the support we can give. I spoke about this same thing earlier … the thread was magically deleted and I got heckled for even suggesting such a thing was even possible or ever happened here. But, here we are, in a thread of numerous members mocking 1 member, even though I’m delusional about saying it happens.

😃

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#1077163
Topic
Religion
Time

Alderaan said:

Jetrell Fo said:

I am happy being an omnist. It doesn’t require that I worship in a specific place or that I must or only do this thing for me to be saved or destroyed.

Fixed it for you. I don’t worship any deity but if I did I don’t think it should be necessary to do it in a particular place especially if said being is supposed to be everywhere.

😉

One can worship God anywhere at anytime. In Mark 12:33 the scribe said to Jesus that to love one’s neighbor and treat them as he or she would want to be treated themselves, is worth more than any act of sacrifice or worship; to which Jesus replied in the affirmative.

Jesus was in the military?

😉

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#1077162
Topic
Religion
Time

DuracellEnergizer said:

Nope, you didn’t fix it for me. I believe there is truth in most (if not all) religions and they are worthy of admiration and respect, but my religious background was Christian and the teachings of Jesus still resonate particularly strongly for me.

I was raised in a Catholic family … my Nana was like the Polish Family Mafia Leader, LOL, but she was awesome!!!

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#1077140
Topic
The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
Time

Possessed said:

They’re probably still trying to get over the shock that you found something on this forum offensive, just give it some time.

I didn’t report it as being offensive so your comment holds no weight on me. Now, I’m going for a cup of coffee, would you like me to fax you one too?

😉

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#1077127
Topic
The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
Time

Possessed said:

Well I thought you didn’t do any of the things in this thread so it can’t possibly be mocking you, because you’re innocent, remember?

You’ve mistaken me for warbler then. He won’t like that.

😉

dahmage said:

Jetrell Fo said:

dahmage said:

Jetrell Fo said:

Possessed said:

Not subtle enough!

This thread isn’t very subtle and it’s about as hypocritical (damn spell check) and useful as Ender’s Book of Martyr’s thread was. I can see how some of the rest of you may find it amusing though considering it’s obvious inspiration.

😉

the thread that inspired this wasn’t very subtle either. (shrugs). everyone wins.

Creating a thread to try and shame one person on the forum by mocking them? The only people that win are the ones participating for the opportunity to do just what the thread is meant to do. So, you all win, and I guess that’s worth something right?

this is starting to spiral out of what i meant, so i just want to clarify one thing. This thread is mocking the other thread. it isn’t mocking you. at least i draw a distinction in that regard.

Most of the “subtle” (which is only in the title, not in the rules part of this thread) insults are based directly off of numerous things I said in the politics thread. The “dickish” comment is a wasted post as the accusation it was tied to via Mr. Frink was debunked by the person who said it to me first.

Enjoy the thread all you like. I reported it to the mods and they apparently are okay with it because it’s still open and going. So, even if it breaks a rule, it’s not breaking any rules that matter anyways.

😉

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#1077080
Topic
The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
Time

dahmage said:

Jetrell Fo said:

Possessed said:

Not subtle enough!

This thread isn’t very subtle and it’s about as hypocritical (damn spell check) and useful as Ender’s Book of Martyr’s thread was. I can see how some of the rest of you may find it amusing though considering it’s obvious inspiration.

😉

the thread that inspired this wasn’t very subtle either. (shrugs). everyone wins.

Creating a thread to try and shame one person on the forum by mocking them? The only people that win are the ones participating for the opportunity to do just what the thread is meant to do. So, you all win, and I guess that’s worth something right?

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#1077043
Topic
The thread where we make <strong>extremely</strong> subtle insults about each other
Time

Possessed said:

Not subtle enough!

This thread isn’t very subtle and it’s about as hypocritical (damn spell check) and useful as Ender’s Book of Martyr’s thread was. I can see how some of the rest of you may find it amusing though considering it’s obvious inspiration.

😉

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#1077034
Topic
The Marvel Cinematic Universe
Time

darthrush said:

TK-949 said:

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2. What a fun ride. I like it even more than the first one (which was a bit of a letdown because of all the hype it got beforehand). 4 post credit scenes, btw.

Very surprised to read this. I have heard from all of my trusted reviewers that this movie was quite underwhelming. Your review now makes me even more excited to check it out for myself! 😃

I agree with TK, it was well worth the trip to the theater to see. I hear the 3D is fantastic and considering how great the 2D looked I can only imagine. The movie gives backstory while moving forward from the last film and it does so very smoothly. Each character gets screen time for their defining moment of clarity and importance to the group.

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#1076968
Topic
The 1997 Star Wars Special Edition Trilogy Preservation Standards Thread [Work In Progress]
Time

TV’s Frink said:

Jetrell Fo said:

MasterClaw said:

Is this still a thing? I’ve spent years looking for a digitized preservation of the 1997 Special Editions as seen in theaters (and VHS and LaserDisc). If this project has been completed, does anyone have a torrent link?

We don’t do torrent links here, sorry. It’s against the rules.

Not true, it’s against the rules to post them in the forum. It’s not against the rules to ask for links in the forum or to receive them via PM.

It’s my thread and I do not have to give out torrent links if I don’t want to.

😃

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#1076864
Topic
The Place to Go for Emotional Support
Time

Mike O said:

I’m on vacation this week. I’ve slept through like half of it. God, I hate living like this.

CatBus said:

Nobody’s replied to you, Mike, but that doesn’t mean we haven’t heard you. There’s just not much we can offer to help, at least me. But we are listening.

Hey, and that’s kind of you. You guys can only do so much, and you aren’t obligated to do much of anything at all. So thanks, is what I’m saying.

People, and by that I suppose I mean nearly everyone, just don’t understand mental illness at a fundamental level. People suffering from it, living with those suffering from it, and pretty much everyone they encounter in their daily lives. They wish for magic wands that can make it go away–medications that are “cures” rather than “managers”, psychotropic drugs without any side-effects, drugs that always work the same way for everyone at every time, unicorn and rainbow stuff. And why shouldn’t they wish for that? Mental illness really is scary. Your mom wants to wave a wand and have her smiling son back, no medicines, no side-effects. And shit, man, it sounds like you’d like that too. You’re just a little closer to the truth of the daily struggle than she is.

I’d fucking love that. Unrealistic as it is, I know how tempting it sounds.

I wouldn’t begrudge people for wishing for things that are never going to happen–it’s a coping mechanism. Not a great one, I agree, but that’s what it is. Explaining the experience of having mental illness to someone else is a Herculean task. But it’s your family. Even if you don’t get it across, it’s worth repeated attempts.

Do your best. It’s the most any of us can hope to do. I can also say if it helps that cracked faith still manages to work pretty well sometimes, although it works differently than the pre-cracked variety.

Lately it’s an obsession with a video about an abortion debate. Let’s just say it’s not a fucking step up. It’s like 100 times worse. Which would be funny if it weren’t destroying me AGAIN.

Tyrphanax said:

Sorry I haven’t been around much lately due to life, but I wanted to echo what CatBus said!

Thanks, Iron Man 😉.

Jetrell Fo said:

Mike O said:

Jetrell Fo said:

Mike O said:

Abilify is up to 10mg. The doctor said I can experiment a little with the Klonopin. My mother is a nervous wreck about sucking down there psychotropics. The side effects so far-fatigue and soreness-suck, and the intrusive thoughts still sort of come and go. I know, it’s been a few days, be patient. But fuck, it’s hard. My fat butt has gained a little weight too, and unhealthy. To be fair, all it does is rain; I may excercise if it ever warms up. God, this is hard. I’m scared of the drugs and the side effects, but when they help even a little, I want to say “gimme more.” Klonopin is a Benzedrine, and I’m really scared of the prospect of addiction. I just want to be fucking normal again.

I don’t see that you’re “sucking” down the psychotropics. You are taking them as prescribed which would be in a timed fashion per day. As for the exercise … there is plenty you can do at home when weather is inclement. If you are truly worried about the Kolonopin then maybe you should just ask for something else due to your fear. As long as you respect the medication and only take it as prescribed you should not be worrying about something that might be helping you.

I’d like to ask what you consider “normal”? Maybe understanding the actual goal you are trying to reach would help your parents and those of us that support you do so better.

“Normal” would be back to the way I was before this happened. With my faith cracked, I don’t know if that’ll ever be possible again. Ever. I’m concerned about the side effects too, sleeping all day and this endless exhaustion. I’m going to tell my doctor about it next time I see him. But then we’re back to square one with the medication roulette. I’m see the actual diagnosing psychologist in a few weeks, so it’s not like I’m relying solely on medicine.

Warning: rant coming. And a long one. Got into it a little bit with my mother last night. Since I’m sleeping too much and frequently lethargic, my mother is upset, and so is my dad, that I’m on too much medication and I’m kind of becoming a zombie. Now, they have a good point. And I’m currently questioning if the medication is helping as much as it should. But I think that they think it’s just my depression, and they both have that. It’s not. It’s also this pseudo-OCD, and I can’t talk to my mother about that at all because of the religious nature of it. It takes time for your body to adjust to medication, and medication has side effects. I get that. And I’ll be honest, both my dad’s doctor and my psychiatrist scare me a little. I’ve never been assertive with authority figures. And the medicine does help. Sometimes. Somewhat. They don’t know how I feel. And it does take time for your body to adjust. But I’ve had that time, they argue. And given that it’s been months, they aren’t wrong. But in a way, I think I secretly like it. Sleep is the ONLY respite I get from this. So if I’m sleeping more, what’s so wrong with that? Other than, you know, sleeping my life away and wasting it. It’s hard to see any further into the future than the end of my shift at work with the condition I’m currently in. I’m just SO sick of fighting. I don’t have the strength to do this day after day, this isn’t much of a kind of living.

“You’re on too much medication!” She says. She’s probably right. I don’t know anymore. But this is a constant battle. Like they said, I’m going to have to exercise every day, work at this every day. Medicine isn’t magic. There’s no simple solution. This just came out of nowhere a year or so ago, prior to which I was fine except for my frustrating inability to move forward with my life. Now there’s this mess. And it’s just not getting better. I say I’m trying. Am I? I am, but not as hard as I should. But that’s hard. It’s hard to fight and live like this every fucking day. I need some way to stabilize it and control it. I’ll never be back to normal. My faith is too cracked now, and too much damage has been done. But maybe I can repair something and try to regain what’s left of my life, rebuild it somehow. But that’s sure a lot easier said than done. It just seems like a no-win situation.

What’s most frustrating is that with my brother’s wedding coming up, my mother is almost angry with me. She insists that I’d better smile through the whole thing, horrified a single picture will really show me, and wants me walking every day because of the damn weight gain she’s alleging she sees from the medicine. I bluntly think this is pretty unfair. I’m hurting. I hurt a lot. And she’s concerned about how I look in public? It’s hard enough to function at work. I’ll be honest, I’m a little bit angry with her that she so damn concerned about public appearance that she isn’t necessarily taking my feelings into consideration as much as she should. Or least is much as I think she should.

I do have one or two questions if you’d consider indulging me. What exactly were you like before you really noticed the change and what do you believe actually tipped the scales and caused the change that is affecting you?

I am sorry that your parents may not be taking this as seriously as you obviously would like them to be. You want them to be parents and not critics. It can be difficult considering the religious factor and maybe whatever their upbringings have brought to the table for them. We ARE here and we ARE listening. Please keep communicating with us as you can.

We support you Mike.

I’m not sure. I was reading a message board a year or so ago and someone made a snarky anti-religious comment, and it all kind of spiraled from there.

Thanks for answering. It’s funny you mention this exact thing too because when I discussed it here I got laughed at by members on how stupid it sounded. The way people present themselves on an internet forum in words CAN hurt people. I’m not sure why some folks here find that so hilarious and impossible.

I’m glad you’re still communicating with us. Keep your head up … we’ll still be here if you need us.