The Place to Go for Emotional Support — Page 65

RicOlie_2 said:

I appreciate it.

The shock has worn off now, but I don’t think the reality of it has fully sunk in yet. I’m on the other side of the country, so I guess i still feels sort of distant and not entirely real.

The nearest situation I can think of to what you are going through in my life was coming back from the summer holidays at college and finding out that a young lady I had known since I was twelve had suddenly died of Menengitus.
She too was a radiant human being with so much potential. She worked particularly hard on one subject which I had just waltzed through without revising, much to her annoyance. I was looking forward to seeing her return for the new year in a new set of courses. And she just wasn’t there anymore. The funeral had happened while we were away. Representatives of the college had gone to it. It just felt intensely strange and difficult to process. I had already experienced the passing of my elderly great grandparents at this point but this was someone my age (17 at that time so thirty years ago). I’ve experienced too many long goodbyes since. Mortality sucks. You have my sympathy.

Thank you Bingowings. I never thought someone so close to me would die at this age. There have always been people I know who have gone through these things, but it never really seems like it could happen to you until it does.

I keep thinking about her dreams and aspirations; how they will never come to fruition now. She was always so happy, it’s so hard to think that she can’t share her joy with the world anymore.

moviefreakedmind said:

I’ve been having these regularly occurring feelings that I’m about to die. Sometimes it’s just a hunch and sometimes I actually feel like I’m physically and I’m not sure what to do about it.

It’s quite common and eventually of course will come true (hopefully not for a very very long time). If it genuinely worries you it’s worth mentioning it to a doctor. Hopefully he or she will give you a quick checkup and tell you everything is fine.

Sounds like textbook anxiety disorder, especially the physically feeling like you’re about to die despite being in good shape. I have it too. Usually at least once a day I have a panic attack thinking that I’m about to have a heart attack or stroke and die, despite the fact that I’m 23 years old and have never been diagnosed with a heart condition.

Well anxiety is so broad almost nothing would be “straight up” anxiety, but what you’re describing sounds like a form of it. Anxiety isn’t always panic either. (Im sure you know all this I’m just recounting some things I’ve picked up on in the several years I’ve been dealing with it)

moviefreakedmind said:

Obviously it’s all in my mind so I don’t need to see a real doctor. I don’t think I trust mental doctors.

I’m not terribly familiar with anxiety attacks, but I assume medication could be helpful. Talking with a “real” doctor would be the first step anyway so why not at least give that a shot, and see what they think?

moviefreakedmind said:

I don’t think I’m willing to take medication

Why not?

I used to take herbal supplements for anxiety that worked really well and never had any side effects for me. I only quit taking them because I started drinking again and was scared of interactions.

Understandable. You may find that the benefits outweigh the drawbacks, however.

To the user who just suffered a loss my condolences. This past week has been pretty bad for me as well. My dad entered rehab for addiction to pain medication, my dog has a ruptured disc in his back and although we have meds for him he’s having issues getting up, and a fellow employee passed away from throat cancer this passed weekend. On a lighter note I was able to go to my childhood friends wedding up in Ithaca, NY this passed Saturday.

Sure it is. Getting rid of it will make your other problems easier to deal with.

It sounds like professional help is definitely the way to go.

Just remember that if nothing else, I enjoy your posts!

moviefreakedmind said:

I’m not sure. Anxiety, if that’s what it is, is the least of my problems anyway so I don’t think it’s worth doing anything about.

Possessed said:

Sure it is. Getting rid of it will make your other problems easier to deal with.

Agreed.