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Possessed, please to what people are telling you here. suicide is not the answer.


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I’ve had a few beers here and there the whole time. Not a big deal, but today I bought my first bottle of hard liquor since getting out of detox. I haven’t drank any yet, I’m scared to because I know once I do I’m officially back to my old habits. But I want to die, and I’d rather it be slowly so I can at least put out another cd or two first. But I’m finished.

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Warbler said:

Possessed said:

I don’t have any fucking friends apparently. And I’m already drunk.

I am very sorry to see this. It makes me very sad and depressed.

“I am a writer. Therefore, I am not sane.”

― Edgar Allan Poe

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Well I still haven’t drank any of it yet so I could still back out, but I want to die.

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Please don’t give in, Possessed. It’s not worth it.

Keep Circulating the Tapes.

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Pour that bottle of liquor down the drain before you get too tempted to drink it. It’s not the solution Possessed.

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Possessed said:

Technically, alcohol IS a solution.

At least you’re not too depressed to make a joke. That’s something. 😉

Seriously though, wasting a few bucks is better than destroying your life during a rough patch.

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RicOlie_2 said:

At least you’re not too depressed to make a joke. That’s something. 😉

Seriously though, wasting a few bucks is better than destroying your life during a rough patch.

Agreed.

Pour one out for OT.com.

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Possessed said:

Well I still haven’t drank any of it yet so I could still back out, but I want to die.

Please don’t do this to yourself. Drinking may seem like a good solution now, but trust me you’re going to regret it later. It’s always possible to get yourself out of a rough spot but please don’t make it harder for yourself. Take it easy and talk with your friends you mentioned earlier, or a therapist if needed. Stay strong and don’t mess life up for yourself, Possessed.

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Come on Possessed. Don’t be silly. I understand things are tough for you now and you’re tired of it, but that doesn’t mean the only solution is to end everything.

I know you thought treatment for your alcoholism was unnecessarily costly, but did you ever get treatment for your depression? A good person to talk to and depression meds can really help with these things. If you already tried, maybe you just weren’t talking to the right person or using the right meds. I know it can be hard to be motivated mentally to even want to get better, but just know that getting help could completely change your perspective.

If you really do feel like you want to leave your life behind, have you ever considered doing something that isn’t so permanent? If you’re really tired of where you’re at, why don’t you move away? Get a different job? Do something crazy? It’s a big world out there with a lot to offer. To think that the best option for your future is just death is honestly pretty naive.

I’d just say, consider the fact that there’s absolutely a scenario in which you twenty years from now are loving life and are thankful your younger self didn’t let his depression and alcoholism make his decisions for him.

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DominicCobb said:

Come on Possessed. Don’t be silly. I understand things are tough for you now and you’re tired of it, but that doesn’t mean the only solution is to end everything.

I know you thought treatment for your alcoholism was unnecessarily costly, but did you ever get treatment for your depression? A good person to talk to and depression meds can really help with these things. If you already tried, maybe you just weren’t talking to the right person or using the right meds. I know it can be hard to be motivated mentally to even want to get better, but just know that getting help could completely change your perspective.

If you really do feel like you want to leave your life behind, have you ever considered doing something that isn’t so permanent? If you’re really tired of where you’re at, why don’t you move away? Get a different job? Do something crazy? It’s a big world out there with a lot to offer. To think that the best option for your future is just death is honestly pretty naive.

I’d just say, consider the fact that there’s absolutely a scenario in which you twenty years from now are loving life and are thankful your younger self didn’t let his depression and alcoholism make his decisions for him.

Yup.

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Nah it’s cool, I do definitely regret posting it on this thread though.

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Problem shared is some BS that most are pre-programmed to say. Come on 8bit guy, if you feel that shitty on life use what help is out there, speaking from experience here…

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I’m back to my old habits until I die approximately a year from now, and that’s the last I’m speaking about it. I regret posting about it last night but since I did I might as well not leave people hanging.

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*sigh* I don’t know what to say.


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Possessed, you really need to listen to what people are saying. Get help. We care about you and see a lot of potential in you that you’re just letting go to waste if you do this. Depression is obviously preventing you from thinking clearly, and you seriously need to get on some medication or something to get out of it.

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RicOlie_2 said:

Possessed, you really need to listen to what people are saying. Get help. We care about you and see a lot of potential in you that you’re just letting go to waste if you do this. Depression is obviously preventing you from thinking clearly, and you seriously need to get on some medication or something to get out of it.

Yep.

I’m not gonna twist your arm about it, and I won’t bring it up again because I can’t make you do it, but please find help.

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I so miss the ordinary typical simple conversations I had with my father. Every time I see something that I know both of us would have had a good laugh about, it saddens me, because I can’t share it with him anymore. It is another reminder that he isn’t here anymore.


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I wasted my teens; I wasted my twenties; I’ll probably end up wasting my thirties, too, along with my forties/fifties/sixties/etc. if I ever get that far.

I don’t want to kill myself. I just wish I had never been born.

“I am a writer. Therefore, I am not sane.”

― Edgar Allan Poe

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I’ve kinda went to a middle ground. I’m still probably drinking more than I should (more than the occasional few beers of before) but also quite a large amount less than before I went to rehab, which was about a 5th a day of mostly vodka (meaning I drank everything but of you added it up the total volume would be about a 5th) whereas now I’ve been on the same 5th for two days and it’s about half gone. Tolerance isn’t meat what it used to be, which is a good thing. I think once I finish the 5th I’ll just go back to drinking a few beers at night and smoking pot. It won’t kill me, but at least it’ll be something.

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DuracellEnergizer said:

I wasted my teens; I wasted my twenties; I’ll probably end up wasting my thirties, too, along with my forties/fifties/sixties/etc. if I ever get that far.

I don’t want to kill myself. I just wish I had never been born.

You could choose to stop wasting them if you really wanted to. I’m not saying it’s easy, but it’s as easier now than it’ll ever be.

JEDIT: Evidently I’m not the best at giving emotional support…