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darthrush said:

I have a cousin who is the same age as I am and over the past couple years he has always been a real dick to me, to put it bluntly. I am as kind as possible around him and he always brags about himself and asks why I’m not the same. I played a couple years of football in middle school. I was the starting running back and was pretty good. I quit cause I didn’t have enough time for it. He still plays and gives me so much shit. “Why did you quit, you pussy?”.

I also have loved to play basketball for most of my childhood. I had played since 3rd grade. I did many club teams and started on my middle school team. When I got into high school I decided to quit since it’s pretty hard to make the team. It’s a 4A school that wins State like every year. I chose to focus on Academics. It was a tough decision for me. He gave me shit like always. He’ll say “Bro, I play football AND baseball. You quit basketball too? Dang, your not athletic at all anymore.” Even though I still regularly play ball with my friends and am on the school tennis team. Currently I’m getting shit from him that really stings. As a Mormon, I’m not allowed to date girls till Im 16. Me and my cousin recently turned 16 and he already has a girlfriend and has taken her to many school dances. I have a group of guy friends who I hang out with all the time and have many girls who are great friends in a lot of my classes too. But I don’t have a girlfriend. Iv been 16 for only like a month. He gives me so much damn shit over this. “Dude are you terrified of girls”. " Stop hiding under a Rock". “Have you even made out with a girl yet?” “Do you even try to talk to girls?”

I feel like absolute shit. God, he just makes me feel like so much less than him. I have a 4.0 GPA, am very involved in school clubs and have a great group of friends. I should be happy about myself but he really tears me down.

Try not to worry about what he thinks. He doesn’t know what he is talking about.

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moviefreakedmind said:

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Yeah what a massive fucking loser he sounds like.

Take comfort in knowing he’s probably very sad inside and feels very inadequate as a person and that you’ll probably outperform him in life.

I don’t take kindly to this post. It offends and saddens me greatly. Maybe you didn’t understand my response but that is not an excuse to label me in this fashion without having a clue as to what I said.

There is no need to be hurtful.

I was replying to and agreeing with MFM about darthrush’s post. Didn’t see you slip your reply in between.

I would only remove the general misanthropy from my response, but the sentiment is the same regarding the guy rush was referring to, although I’d say give him another chance after a while. People tend to grow out of those fazes.

Maybe. It just annoys me when people are shitty to other people for inane reasons.

Keep Circulating the Tapes.

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darthrush said:

Thanks for the responses guys. I’ll try not to let him get under my skin but still be kind.

Very mature and reasonable. Just hang in there, it’ll get better.

And most importantly, keep being you.

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Suicide is the only option for me now. Someone, please listen to me and help.

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generalfrevious said:

Suicide is the only option for me now. Someone, please listen to me and help.

Please don’t do something you’ll regret, man.

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I don’t visit this thread too much, but again my best wishes go out to everyone suffering at the moment. Good to hear you are taking positive steps Possessed & Mike, hang in there. Sorry to hear about your uncle, general. Please try to find someone IRL who will listen and help with your current state of mind, even if it is just a trained and caring voice on a hotline.

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generalfrevious said:

Suicide is the only option for me now. Someone, please listen to me and help.

Judging by your posts in the politics thread, I’m going to take a liberty and assume this thought has something to do with the election. Well don’t give in man. Don’t let hate and fear win. Stay alive and fight, prove you’re better and stronger. Show they don’t have the power to destroy your life.

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Wish I had words for you guys.

I’ve had a rough go of it myself these last couple months. Doesn’t look like it’ll be getting better anytime soon. I’m honestly in a very dark place right now. I’m usually very optimistic about everything but that’s taken a sharp 180. I would never think of suicide but it’s probably safe to say that I’m at least depressed. Hard to see right now how not everything fucking sucks.

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DominicCobb said:

Wish I had words for you guys.

I’ve had a rough go of it myself these last couple months. Doesn’t look like it’ll be getting better anytime soon. I’m honestly in a very dark place right now. I’m usually very optimistic about everything but that’s taken a sharp 180. I would never think of suicide but it’s probably safe to say that I’m at least depressed. Hard to see right now how not everything fucking sucks.

It happens to everyone at some point (For some reason, or for no reason)… then years later you look back at that point and you can’t even work out how you got into that head-space. Trust me it’ll happen.

I know this is only the interwebz but you have friends here and over on fanedit.org who appreciate you.

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^Ryan is right. You’re not alone Dom. The last couple of years have been filled with a lot of lows for me too. Know you have friends in this community (including FE) that really care. It’s a crazy time right now, but we’re here with you.

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I can’t find a good gif of this, but I’m with you too Dom.

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I want to drink so bad right now. It’s not physical symptoms anymore (although I think my blood pressure is still high) but there is some really corrupt and shady shit going on at my workplace. My best friend is being fucked out of her job. It’s becoming so corrupt I’m scared to go to work every day. I just want a cold beer and to cry my eyes out so bad. Honestly the only reason I don’t is because I think my friends will leave me if I don’t and I don’t want my last six months to be alone. (That’s the timeline the doctors gave me if I didn’t quit)

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It’s not worth it, man. Don’t give in. Fight that urge.

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Possessed said:

there is some really corrupt and shady shit going on at my workplace. My best friend is being fucked out of her job. It’s becoming so corrupt I’m scared to go to work every day.

This sickens and saddens me. No one recovering from substance abuse needs this kind of bullshit. My sincere hopes that everything works out fine for the both of you.

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When I took on my new job on day one I met this amazingly resourceful and driven lady who had set up a website to help people find help with their mental health problems. Some people didn’t take to her personality style but I was instantly impressed by her. Her daughter had suicided the year before and she was finding financing the site difficult, much of the time she was propping it up with her own money. I can see her face right now as I type this. The look of “what is this” as I poked my head around the door and said hello. A couple of weeks later she was dead. She took her life. The pain of being without her daughter too much I imagine. Now she can’t help other mothers like herself. Her daughter’s pain and death became hers and that light won’t come back on in this world. Suicide is not a good thing. You don’t have prevention courses and emergency hotlines for good things. Every suicide is the murder of a potentially happier healthier future person. If you feel the temptation to kill yourself think of the best you you could possibly be and remember he dies too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6Dp2OfIT_M

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Damn, Bingo. A sad story, but a powerful message.

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Bingowings said:

When I took on my new job on day one I met this amazingly resourceful and driven lady who had set up a website to help people find help with their mental health problems. Some people didn’t take to her personality style but I was instantly impressed by her. Her daughter had suicided the year before and she was finding financing the site difficult, much of the time she was propping it up with her own money. I can see her face right now as I type this. The look of “what is this” as I poked my head around the door and said hello. A couple of weeks later she was dead. She took her life. The pain of being without her daughter too much I imagine. Now she can’t help other mothers like herself. Her daughter’s pain and death became hers and that light won’t come back on in this world. Suicide is not a good thing. You don’t have prevention courses and emergency hotlines for good things. Every suicide is the murder of a potentially happier healthier future person. If you feel the temptation to kill yourself think of the best you you could possibly be and remember he dies too.

Jesus, man. That’s powerful stuff.

“What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.”

Neil Postman, Amusing Ourselves to Death

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I wish I hadn’t made it such an ordeal with all my close friends when I quit drinking so I could drink now without them being mad at me. Btw I still haven’t. Tomorrow will be day 20.

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Hang in there dude. You’re doing great.

You gotta do this for nobody else but you and your future. Stay strong and persevere.

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That’s the thing though I don’t really care anymore. I’m not sure I even ever really did I think I just quit dRinking to make my friends happy anyway. I guess out was as good a strategy as any because the thought of living my last six months being a disappointment to them has been pretty captivating so far. I wish they could just be there for me and let me live my last six months numb, but I know that’s an unreasonable expectation and I would never ask that of them.

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Just take care of yourself, man.

You have someone to talk to? A sponsor? Going to meetings? That stuff might really help with perspective and support.

Keep Circulating the Tapes.

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Possessed said:

I want to drink so bad right now. It’s not physical symptoms anymore (although I think my blood pressure is still high) but there is some really corrupt and shady shit going on at my workplace. My best friend is being fucked out of her job. It’s becoming so corrupt I’m scared to go to work every day. I just want a cold beer and to cry my eyes out so bad. Honestly the only reason I don’t is because I think my friends will leave me if I don’t and I don’t want my last six months to be alone. (That’s the timeline the doctors gave me if I didn’t quit)

You have support here. I believe in you. Please believe too.

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Another ten days and you’ll be over the hump of addiction.

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If everything at work hadn’t all the sudden fell apart out of nowhere I’d be fine. I was doing great before that, most of the time anyway.