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I don’t have a therapist lol. I just talk to my two female friends who are both just slightly more than friends but less than being in a relationship with. (obviously, or else there would only be one of them…)
I don’t have a therapist lol. I just talk to my two female friends who are both just slightly more than friends but less than being in a relationship with. (obviously, or else there would only be one of them…)
A therapist + medication might be worth consideration.
It might, but the last time I took prescription medication for mental issues I didn’t like what it did to my personality.
What did it do?
Basically just turned me into a twat who cared nothing but about how I felt. Stepped on my friends, ignored them, basically abondoned them under the guise of it making me feel better. Basically made it to where ALL I cared about was how I felt, and not how anybody else felt. The drinking and pot smoking have actually kindof done the opposite, I mean I obviously care how I feel or I wouldn’t bother posting any of this here, but in action I care more about how other people feel and kindof just ignore myself. I just need to find a balance.
I don’t have a therapist lol. I just talk to my two female friends who are both just slightly more than friends but less than being in a relationship with. (obviously, or else there would only be one of them…)
Just wanted to let any concerned parties that today I went into treatment for alcoholism/substance abuse/depression/anxiety/generallybeingadebbiedowner.
if you truly went into to treatment, you would have gotten some sort of therapist or someone they said you could contract.
I went for a short time, but I didn’t keep going. Felt like a waste of money. Nothing against it or the people that ran the clinic, but it felt like it wasn’t financially worth it.
Basically just turned me into a twat who cared nothing but about how I felt. Stepped on my friends, ignored them, basically abondoned them under the guise of it making me feel better. Basically made it to where ALL I cared about was how I felt, and not how anybody else felt. The drinking and pot smoking have actually kindof done the opposite, I mean I obviously care how I feel or I wouldn’t bother posting any of this here, but in action I care more about how other people feel and kindof just ignore myself. I just need to find a balance.
There are many different medications that do similar things and may not affect you in the same ways. You should discuss with a doctor.
Not the right place for that.
Meh, I’m not offended by it. I’ve definitely taken my fair share of jabs at Warbler lately anyway.
Not the right place for that.
it was my honest reaction at him quitting his treatment. I strongly advise that Possessed go back to treatment.
Like I said it didn’t bother me.
Alright, sorry for distracting from the core issue here. You need help, be it therapy, medication, or both.
Oh no you’re fine. Also probably right.
I’ve said it many times before, but I’m honestly convinced of the same as the others. As a psych nurse, it’s a topic I’m very passionate about. Dwelling on suicidal thoughts but saying, “I’ll never do anything about it,” is a bit of a self deception. You really may slip down some dark thoughts one day and lose your judgment. One suicide attempt on one particularly bad day may be enough for me never to read another Possessed post. Take this stuff seriously. There is help, and maybe some other meds will work better for you. Mental health has come a long way with many options so don’t give it up or rely on self-medication. I wish you lived nearby where I could personally help. But trust me there is help for you and nothing is more personality altering than death. Your friends and family need you.
Absolutely. Just wouldn’t feel comfortable opening up myself.
The reason I asked is if you could volunteer some time to help people in a similar situation as yourself you could talk about your own experiences contextually.
So if a chap was talking about how low he felt and how the thoughts of suicide were becoming frequent and pressing you could express your solidarity by recounting some experiences of your own and maybe share some of your coping strategies with him.
Usually the training given for such roles is as useful for yourself as it would be for the people you might help.
It’s just an idea but it might be worth just looking around and seeing what sort of voluntary services are around that you could help out with and in turn receive some help from by the act of helping.
I’m fucking so pissed off, betrayed, and hurt I don’t even have words to describe or tell the story. I can’t. Maybe in a few days I’ll be able to objectively explain myself, but for now all I’m capable of is being pissy and hateful. (Not toward anybody here, but I don’t think I could tell the story without being unnecessarily demeaning and contentious toward those in the story)
They had a god damned intervention for me at work the other day (not for being drunk at work… I’m pretty smooth at hiding that). People cried, I reacted poorly, bridges may have been burned and I now feel infinitely worse and more alone.
I wish people cared about me that much! You’re fortunate that they cared enough to have an intervention for you.
The Person in Question
Yeah I suppose that’s one way to look at it.
And what makes you think they don’t? Maybe your problems are just less easily perceived. With me I’ve developed pale, blotchy skin, baggy, sunk in, wrinkly, bloodshot eyes with purple sacks underneath (hehe, purple sacks) weight loss and just a generally sick appearance that they’ve all known me long enough to know isn’t what I’m supposed to look like. Perhaps if your problems we’re so visible people would have one for you too? I’m sure people care. And trust me, the guilt of having people you love more than life itself worried to the point of tears over the way you live your life isn’t as glamorous as it sounds.
I know it’s not glamorous. I wasn’t totally serious with that first sentence about myself. I know you don’t need a lecture on the consequences of alcohol abuse, but I implore you to take some kind of action immediately. It may not mean much coming from someone you don’t know, but I would hate for a time to come where I never see your posts again.
The Person in Question
Oh shit don’t worry I’ve been lectured so much lately I barely even notice.
And maybe so but in my experience usually when people make jokes like that there’s a hint of what they really feel in them. I’m sure people care enough for you that were your issues as visible they would take action.
My friend approached me today, apparently one of his friends committed suicide. Needless to say, I am sad, sympathetic to him, and very, very worried about him.
Elsewhere, in my own life, the whole theology crisis I was going through has triggered some obsessive behavior and depression of my own for the past several months which have been horrible, and I’m sick and tired of it. I want to return to the intellectual equilibrium I had before this nonsense started, I have enough nuts and bolts real life problems, I don’t need this horseshot. I’m so sick of it. My friend has an actual issue in his life that’s beyond my imagining, and this OCD loop in my head and inexplicable obsession with repeatedly looking at things and returning to threads which I know will only have seriously upsetting effects on me is worsening when it shouldn’t even be an issue at all. I feel like shithead of the year while my friend has real problems, and I’m so sick of this crap. So sick of it. I want it fucking stop. I want my mind back to normal. I have to work tomorrow again. I want to be a normal, functional adult again before my parents start catching onto this. I have real-life problems with an unhappy job, wasted life, and actual problems in my real-world life. If I were stressing about those, maybe this might be more tolerable. I want to cry. I want my head to stop buzzing like a goddamn beehive. No long clicking threads and links I know will bother me would be a good start, but like a relapsing junkie who keeps licking at a scab, I keep going back it. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I go to my audiobooks and video games to distract myself like I used to. The last bout of anxiety eventually stopped, why won’t this one? Why have I been typing this crap until my thumbs get tired on an anonymous message board? Jesus Christ.
Sorry. I do feel slightly better. I’d just like to focus on actual problems like my friend’s instead of this pointless crap in my life. I’m so worried about him.
“What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one.”
Neil Postman, Amusing Ourselves to Death
I know I’m the last person of authority to ask this question, but have you considered medication? Also guilt over things you can’t help is terrible and not something you should feel.