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A certain post I made somewhere in the Random Thoughts thread could likely be early signs of what was to come when I came back on 2020.

All I can say is, although I removed my original post, it can still be seen as is quoted, and although it was definitely disproportionate and a sad attempt to get attention, nowadays I REALLY DO SOMETIMES FUCKING FEEL LIKE IT, y’know!

I really don’t want to go into any detail or defame any family members, and the memory is hazy, but when I was young, my warped brain may have interpreted some innocuous things some family member did to me in a, let’s just say inappropriate and rather distressing light. I’m certain I wasn’t actually diddled (and I decline to go into any further detail as this is deeply personal, but I certainly did not like it. perhaps my sick sexual preference got modelled after that or predated it.

My sexual fetishes and sex drive are becoming a damned serious problem. I’m still a virgin and haven’t harmed anyone (other than myself), but those goddamn YouTube fetish videos of some goddamn movie scenes started this downward spiral of psuedo-PMO that turned my life to the dogs.

It seems my whole life revolves around SEX right now. I have no fucking direction which seems to have all started from some addiction.

Let’s just hope I don’t hang myself first thing in the motherfucking morning.

Also, I’m struggling real hard to stay off the net with my problems, also…

THE MEDICATION TEST RESULTS STILL HAVEN’T FUCKING COME YET!!!

IT DOESN’T HELP THAT MY FAMILY IS DIVIDED ON THE MATTER!! ONE SIDE WANTS IT, THE OTHER HALF DOESN’T. AND YES, I’VE TALKED.

All the whole my mental health continues to decay…

I seriously don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. Life really is putting me in the shitter.

If there’s a God, he’ll have some serious reparations both for me and others who have suffered throughout history.

But if he’s testing me… Well that’s definitely something different, and a lot better, to leave this post on a positive note.

When’s something gonna happen?

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Spuffure said:

I seriously don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. Life really is putting me in the shitter.

Go outside. Stop spending so much time online. Go to the gym. Look for real, genuine friends (not internet “friends”). Look for a meaningful, long term relationship, not just getting off. If you’re unemployed, get a job. Stop watching porn. None of this is new to you because you’ve talked about stuff like this in this thread before, but you have to stop talking about it and start acting. Nobody’s going to pull you out of your misery but yourself. It’s way easier said than done, but you will do it eventually. Your attitude that you can’t go on much longer like this is correct. Your suicidal ideation is not because you want to die, but because you don’t want to continue living the way you are. Every day you indulge in the behaviors that make you miserable achieves nothing but delaying your rehabilitation by a day.

My sexual fetishes and sex drive are becoming a damned serious problem.

And for the love of God, stop posting shit like this on a public forum and just fix it.

Reading R + L ≠ J theories

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SparkySywer said:

Spuffure said:

I seriously don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. Life really is putting me in the shitter.

Go outside. Stop spending so much time online. Go to the gym. Look for real, genuine friends (not internet “friends”). Look for a meaningful, long term relationship, not just getting off. If you’re unemployed, get a job. Stop watching porn. None of this is new to you because you’ve talked about stuff like this in this thread before, but you have to stop talking about it and start acting. Nobody’s going to pull you out of your misery but yourself. It’s way easier said than done, but you will do it eventually. Your attitude that you can’t go on much longer like this is correct. Your suicidal ideation is not because you want to die, but because you don’t want to continue living the way you are. Every day you indulge in the behaviors that make you miserable achieves nothing but delaying your rehabilitation by a day.

My sexual fetishes and sex drive are becoming a damned serious problem.

And for the love of God, stop posting shit like this on a public forum and just fix it.

Actually great advice.

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I agree with Handman. Honestly, thank you for the advice, SparkySywer. A good kick in the arse. I agree I need to stop posting this and also need to step back and see how far delaying my recovery gets me and basically trying to get babysit by others only gets one so far.

My medication tests are nearly there, and I’m gaining many new friends. I will get there.

I’m also getting involved in yoga, so there’s that going.

When’s something gonna happen?

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I feel like my dad has been disappointed in me since I came out as bi a few years ago. I didn’t think that would make him change his entire perspective of me, but it’s starting to drive me insane.

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Mango said:

I feel like my dad has been disappointed in me since I came out as bi a few years ago. I didn’t think that would make him change his entire perspective of me, but it’s starting to drive me insane.

His intolerance is a reflection of him , not of you .
“Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.”-Tyrion Lannister

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Fuck dating, fuck neurotypicals, fuck social decorum, and honestly just fuck off with people’s absurdly high expectations of me.

I’m just a simple man trying to make my way in the universe.

Star Wars has 3 eras: The eras are 1977-1983(pre Expanded Universe), (1983-2014) expanded universe, or (2014- now) Disney-bought version. Each are valid.

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Somewhere, out there, are several people who feel the same way and would love to meet someone like them. And there are several more who aren’t like that but who would be much more open to who you are.

You’re young yet. You just need to get out in to the world more and meet more people. And if that doesn’t work, try dating websites.

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Bethesda Fallout

that is all.

How was I to know your kind can’t eat sweetweed?

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I hate that I’m not able to have complex, articulate discussions in English.

English and Italian have two completely different ways of expressing and structuring sentences. And since I’m Italian, I’m obviously accustomed to the way Italian is spoken and the way sentences and speeches are structured in Italian, with the result that every time I want to try to have a complex discussion in English, I can never structure well my sentences and speeches as I’d like to. When I have to express basic concepts ranging from point A to point B, I’m perfectly able to express myself in English without any problem and without difficulty in making myself understood by others. But when I have to talk about complex, articulate and nuanced issues, then I can never structure my speeches and sentences as well as I would like, always ending up being forced to give up any discussion.

I hate this situation, it’s very annoying for me!

“Sometimes we must let go of our pride, and do what is requested to us.”
– Anakin Skywalker

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I know the feeling. It takes a lot of work (and immersion in the language) to get to the point where expressing complex ideas fluently is possible. But it’s doable…I know people who learned other languages as adults who can speak them fluently and intelligently.

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Syntactically and grammatically, it’s pretty easy to learn, though, at least for Europeans. We don’t really have conjugations or declensions to speak of, for instance, so it’s a pretty simply language apart from the irregular spelling.

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RicOlie_2 said:

it’s a pretty simply language apart from the irregular spelling.

😃

“The Anarchists are right in everything; in the negation of the existing order and in the assertion that, without Authority there could not be worse violence than that of Authority under existing conditions. They are mistaken only in thinking that anarchy can be instituted by a violent revolution… There can be only one permanent revolution — a moral one: the regeneration of the inner man. How is this revolution to take place? Nobody knows how it will take place in humanity, but every man feels it clearly in himself. And yet in our world everybody thinks of changing humanity, and nobody thinks of changing himself.”

― Leo Tolstoy

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Since the internet is so big, so polarised, and with so many self-improvement activists with so many different opinions and followers or non-followers…

I have no fucking idea who to root for or believe.

When’s something gonna happen?

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Spartacus01 said:

I hate that I’m not able to have complex, articulate discussions in English.

English and Italian have two completely different ways of expressing and structuring sentences. And since I’m Italian, I’m obviously accustomed to the way Italian is spoken and the way sentences and speeches are structured in Italian, with the result that every time I want to try to have a complex discussion in English, I can never structure well my sentences and speeches as I’d like to. When I have to express basic concepts ranging from point A to point B, I’m perfectly able to express myself in English without any problem and without difficulty in making myself understood by others. But when I have to talk about complex, articulate and nuanced issues, then I can never structure my speeches and sentences as well as I would like, always ending up being forced to give up any discussion.

I hate this situation, it’s very annoying for me!

Well English is my first and only langwich and I have difficulty expressing myself with it.

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I would not envy someone learning it as a second language.

The problem is that you have to learn English, because it’s the most spoken language in the world, and also because everything internationally is done using the English language. If you have to travel for work in a country where the inhabitants speak a language that you don’t speak, then the only alternative you have to make yourself understood is by speaking English. Furthermore, even if you work in your own country you have to learn English, because if tourists come you have to know how to interact with them. So much so that here, in Italy, learning English is almost mandatory in order to have a job. So yes, I wish I didn’t have to learn English, but unfortunately I have to…

“Sometimes we must let go of our pride, and do what is requested to us.”
– Anakin Skywalker

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Elon Musk introduced rate limits on Twitter.

Project creator and film enthusiast.

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On Twitter, a new rule was introduced where users can only view a certain amount of tweets per day.

Project creator and film enthusiast.

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Hmmm. I follow a shitload of accounts on Twitter anyway.