Yeah, you seem to have some serious issues you need to address. Like, we just come here to let off steam but you’re really in a bad place and have been for a long time and need serious psychological treatment of some sort. Help won’t come on its own; you have to seek it out.
And I do share that dread in the face of AI. What is my art worth if a computer can pump it out instantly? I disagree about there being an impasse though. We can’t just choose to pretend the technology doesn’t exist. It’s there and always will be, and it’s only gonna get better. There’s no point being a Luddite.
Anyway, I’m here cuz my linguistics class I’m in bores me to tears. It’s strange cuz once I’m actually doing work for it I have no problem but I just can’t pay attention to these lectures.
Really though, the thing on my mind right now is frustration at just how little control I feel I have in the game of love. Just recently I’ve become great friends with this girl but she has a boyfriend so it’s never gonna be anything more. I’ve come to realize finding love dependent on the convergence of four different factors:
- Do I like this girl?
- Does she like me?
- Can we spend time together?
- Is she single.
Of those, only the third one do you ever have any semblance of control over, and even then it’s only partial. It’s just soulcrushing when you feel you’re doing everything correctly and still failing. I guess there’s always room for optimization, but still. What’s worse is I don’t feel like I’m getting any better at it. I’m still hitting the same roadblocks as I did years ago. It’s incredibly frustrating.
Take for example this girl in my class right now. I think she’s cute but she shows up right before the lecture with headphones on and leaves immediately after the same way. How do you even break through at that point?