Depression doesn’t really take into account how good your life is. You can have the objectively best life in the world and still be depressed.

I’ve always had things pretty good, and yet I’ve been pretty massively depressed at points in my life. That’s just how it works. You have to stop being so hard on yourself about this stuff. It’s like Bingo keeps saying, if you’d fallen and broken a leg, would you be saying your leg shouldn’t be broken because you have things pretty well in general? Or would you focus on healing? You don’t just “man up” or “get some courage” to “get over” a broken leg, you stop and let it heal. It’s the same thing with brains.

You should definitely be discussing your depression with the therapist as well. A lot of this stuff is all co-morbid. Depression and anxiety and OCD all go together as a package deal a lot of the time, and they all need to be worked on together.

I wish you’d give this therapy a chance, but like you said, if you’re not willing to participate then nothing will change.