A few months ago, I was fine, now I’m going to have to live with this for the rest of my life? Doesn’t sound appealing. My brain has been an endless cycle all day at work while I keep going, it’s like Cartesian mind-body dualism, and it seems to be a worsening mental spiral. Hopefully I’ll get some sleep tonight, anyway. I’m so tired of this. I don’t know how much longer I can take it, and from where I am now, it’s pretty fucking hard to feel like I’ll ever feel any better or like I did once before. I see that new psychologist tomorrow, hopefully he can refer me to a psychiatrist who can prescribe something, if anything will help. I’m scared half to death of the appointment, and have no idea how compatible, if at all, I’ll be with him. It takes so long to get help, if it’ll help, so long for medication to work. I’m just tired of this.

Warbler, I am certainly glad to hear about your father! Hopefully his health will continue to improve. It sounds like there’s a long way to go, but it does sound like some genuine progress, and that is marvelous.