Holy fuck, so much for progress! I had another COMPLETELY random set of compulsions followed by an anxiety attack unlike any I’ve ever had, I actually thought I might go crazy. I’m still sweat hours later, my heartbeat doubled, my hands shook, my face went numb, it was easily of the scariest experiences I’ve ever had. I think I’ll hope for a heart attack from it if that shit happens again. Don’t know if I can hide it from my parents. I dot know what the fuck to do. I’m amazed I managed to make it through the rest of my work shift. Jesus fucking Christ. That was…God.
It sounds like almost every anxiety attack I’ve had or my mother has had in my presence. The last one I had was watching Game of Thrones. I was running around shouting “I can’t breath” at the top of my voice until the rational side of my brain kicked in and reasoned that if I can run around shouting I must be breathing. I then calmed down. Scary as hell while it was happening though as you know.