Which is a catch 22. Because in some ways it feels like the job causes me to drink. But on the other hand it feels like I’d drink a lot more if I didn’t have people keeping an eye on me. Notcing and saying something when my eyes get sunken in, when I have purple under them, when my skin gets pale. Asking if I’ve eaten.
I get told I look tired every day, its almost getting annoying.
Anyway, I think if I was left to my own devices I would completely self destruct.