Hey, you said you felt good for a week or two. That sounds like fantastic progress to me! Of course you’re going to have relapses, and at first, they’re going to happen fairly often, but if you keep at it, they’ll get further and further apart. Don’t give up! You’ve made progress, and that’s the important part.
It sure seems like feeling better was the exception rather than the rule. It almost makes the highs feel worse, like I got cheated or something. Doesn’t make any fucking sense, I know, but I feel even worse now.
Hey, you said you felt good for a week or two. That sounds like fantastic progress to me! Of course you’re going to have relapses, and at first, they’re going to happen fairly often, but if you keep at it, they’ll get further and further apart. Don’t give up! You’ve made progress, and that’s the important part.
Yeah, this is the truth right here. Progress will always come with some amount of backslide: you find a job, you get laid off. You find a girlfriend, you break up. It happens, but what matters is that you make the progress and realize that you’ve done it before and can do it again. You’re gonna have rough patches and relapses, but like Ric said, they’ll get further and further apart as you move forward.
You’re gonna be okay, and I know that because you’ve been okay before.
I don’t know, feeling any better feels like an outlier at this point. I found an OCD specialist who can prescribe (the only one who can in area and the field as far as I Can tell) online, fairly close by, and shot out an e-mail to see if she takes my insurance. It’s been a few weeks, I suppose I should set up another one with the guy I’ve been seeing, I just don’t see the point. I can’t reason with irrationality. He’s tried approaching these problems logically and point out how given my own views, they shouldn’t bother me, and he’s right, but that doesn’t stop them. It just feels like trying to put out a forest fire with a water bottle. I just don’t know what to fucking do anymore. I’ve been indulging these compulsions since I got home from fucking work. I can’t take it anymore.