Hey Mike. Glad to hear from you again, but I’m sorry it’s under these circumstances.

I hate to be a further downer, but yeah… this sounds like a late-onset OCD thing. You can’t really “cure” things like this, but you can manage them. That doesn’t mean you can’t have quality-of-life: my brother went from being completely crippled by his OCD (to the point where he was in danger of dying) to now having gainful employment and a social life and all of that normal stuff. You’ve already got a job, and you’re at the age where you’re already fairly established in terms of who you are, so you’re ahead of him there.

You can do this. I know it seems like you can’t, but I know for a fact that you can. You know for a fact that you can manage this, and that you can feel better, and that you can live a normal life with everything going on, because you have been. You’re going to have to bust your ass, but you’ve already done that, and you’re already doing it as it is. I know you can do this, man.

You definitely need to keep up with your therapy, as well; even when you’re feeling good. If you haven’t looked into an OCD specialist yet, maybe now is the time.

I’m sorry you have to deal with this. It’s bullshit, I know. But hang in there dude. We’re pullin’ for you at OT.com.