Mike, when you said you put the phone upstairs to eat I totally read it the wrong way, “Why doesn’t his phone eat at the table?”, I thought.

I hope your birthday, at the very least, doesn’t entirely suck and if you can grab even a moment of calm then you damn well consider it a happy day. Don’t dwell on it when you slip or when you’re fighting the urges - dwell on the times when you don’t. It’s not about beating your problems or being fully in control it’s about not letting them rule you ALL the time. One second of time when you’re not giving in is worth a day full of slips.

Please keep fighting, Mike. There’s a lot of people here who care about your wellbeing.