Mike O said:
I’m starting to think that your solution, while I don’t want to consider it, might be a necessity…
…I feel like a relapsing drug addict.That is indeed an effective analogy. What you are going through has the hallmarks of anxiety, depression, and obsession, but it’s also in some ways like addiction. Addicts have to be mindful of people, places, and paraphernalia.
Well, that’s humiliating, but given how I just had another slip-up again a few minutes ago, I might be forced to conclude that you have a point. I more or less fought one off last night when I went to bed, but getting up again brought them all on again. I just feel so weak now. Happy Birthday to me. Happy Birthday to me. And I have to get up at 5:00 tomorrow to go back to work. Just great.
EDIT: Put the phone upstairs to eat. When my parents left for church, I slipped with the computer. God.