After a long period of silence on this (for many a reason), I think it only fair that I finally speak up. For anyone who hasn’t read the prior pages through, I went through a divorce just before Christmas of '09. That left me without several ways to do anything related to this project. I remained hopeful though and got few things back on track for myself. I got back to work full time and then got into a lovely relationship (which I am now happily re-married). However, my victory of working full time was short lived as my former place was quite dependent on the local economy being in good order. So, at the end of 2012 I had to make a choice ; continue to play “on-again, off-again” with my “job” as I had done for almost 10 years or then go for broke and change my profession. So, I went for broke…no use crying myself to sleep over a job that could only exist when economies were good and people wanted to spend. I decided I’d become a nurse, having no clue how I’d manage to do that in a foreign language (for those who don’t know me more personally, I live in another country than the one I was born in).
So, I cracked down hard and pulled off a miracle. In a mere 8 months, I went to a language course which improved my language skills just enough to get accepted to a nursing assistant education while being able to at the same time get myself some on the job experience through the local labor force at a home for the elderly and within 9 months after that completing the education and getting the assistant’s degree as well as being accepted to continue on for the full nursing degree. I also managed to land myself a personal assistant’s job with a private client with a disability and on top of all this…take care of my daily life with my wife and now two children. So it was the fall of '14 that I began to notice that something was off, and by March of '15 after an anxiety attack during a rather mundane outing…I was diagnosed with depression. Shortly said, I’ve always been one to take responsibility VERY seriously and as often as I could and it had finally piled up. So my education towards the full nursing degree had to be put on hold and I (thankfully) got myself the help to clean up the mess my depression made.
I find myself here writing this not because I have to, only because I feel that those who did sacrifice to contribute should hear why this project has been on hold for so long. I wish I could get it done by tomorrow…however, that is not the reality I face at the moment. Perhaps I can eventually take some time and go through again what I have…scans, clips and whatnot and assess the true status. Once I do, I will let it be known here. Please understand if it doesn’t happen any sooner than it does. My life has to be complete before the project can be complete.
Kindest Regards,
InvisibleWolfMan