Mike O said:
I want to enjoy life again, enjoy movies again, be able to watch stuff, read stuff, not have anxiety attacks when I pass churches.

Being able to experience enjoyment again is something that tends to come back slowly, but it does come back. Based on what you’ve described, it sounds as if it will be a while before you can enjoy the things that you mentioned again, and it won’t come back in one go, but you’ll get there. Probably, you’ll catch yourself enjoying something one day and won’t realize until that instant that that’s what you have been doing.