As I’ve said before, your “worst day” is still your worst day, even if someone else has had an even worse day than you ever have. Don’t beat yourself up because you feel like other people have it worse (not to belittle your problems, Darth Lucas).

Your meds won’t start kicking in for a few weeks, so you’re probably just having a rough day or two. That’ll always happen. It happens to all of us! You could be experiencing some reverse-placebo effect where your anxiety about the new dosage makes you feel like its not helping, too. Just stick out the next few weeks until it has a chance to actually take hold.

The thing about OCD is that it’s an irrational thing. You know the truth, you know you don’t actually need to go through your rituals, you know where you stand on theology and your opinions are concrete and you don’t need to keep debating it, but you can’t help yourself. That’s just the way OCD works. Just try to avoid the situations where you’re obsessing and if you find yourself in one, do your best to get out of it. But don’t beat yourself up if you can’t, because you can cause hopelessness doing that, and that’ll make it worse. Just try again next time.

Writing always helps me, and so keeping a journal is a great idea, especially because you can record your thoughts in the moment and show them to your therapist without forgetting details and whatnot. Great idea!

You’re fighting hard, and you’re doing a good job of it. Keep it up.