I’m going to park the advice car for a minute and just remark on how articulate and courageous Mike O has been typing about what must be a very emotionally frustrating and confusing situation. There are plenty of people who have feelings like this and experience difficult to explain obsessions and don’t talk to anyone about it. Many of which sadly find no other escape than suicide. That you have been so frank and open to advice may help someone else wandering onto your words. Thanks for doing that and to all those in distress on the ocean of the web may you all avoid the rocks and find a safe harbour.