Nice guy, but detached even for a shrink. I get that’s their job, but he was awfully aloof. When I told him that I may switch, he was quite kind and said that the compatibility of therapist and the patient was of paramount importance, and if I felt that way, to let him know. Basically just ran down the whole list of what’s going on, what I do, etc. I know this will take time, and grow was just a session to get ready. Slipped again almost immediately afterwards, and have a nasty nasal infection which is draining into my throat, so no I’m sick mentally and physically.
One good treatment for an obsession is a different one. I don’t know if you have ever had an earworm (catchy tune you can’t shake) but if you listen to something similarly catchy it will overwrite your desire to listen catchy tune number 1.
Clearly watching Atheist videos is causing some of the fixation and anxiety, There are other similarly moreish video types (game walk throughs, unboxing videos etc) so the next time you get an urge to watch a theological video try watching something like that instead, and then another one. Are there any topics that you were fascinated by before your current religious debate fixation?
I had all kids: movies, music, books, comics, all of the stuff we talk about around here. Why don’t I look at that instead of all this shit which is upsetting me, you might ask? That’s an excellent fucking question! And fuck, do I wish I had an answer.
EDIT: It just keeps getting worse! Fuck! What the fuck is happening to me?!