Why the hell can’t I make this any better? I takes all of my energy to get up in the morning. Why is this so hard? God, I have to go to work in five minutes. It’s so fucking hard.
It’s hard because you aren’t well. If you broke your leg it would hurt so much you couldn’t easily get about and do day to day things. If you went to the hospital they might reset the bone and put it in a plaster cast and give you pain relief but it would still be a long time before you could run about. Similarly your brain and body are not currently working optimally. You could and should seek medical assistance but you must be patient with the treatment (pun intended). It will take a while to reach optimal use. At the moment you are at the trying to get around on an untreated broken leg stage.
This, exactly.
I know I sound like a broken record in here, but you need to find help. You need to take care of yourself. This isn’t something you ignore, just like you wouldn’t ignore a broken leg. You need to find a professional, and the sooner the better.
I understand it’s hard, but you need to look at this like Bingo said: as though it were any kind of physical medical emergency. You are hurting and you need to be helped.
We’re pulling for you, man. But we can only do what we’re doing, it’s up to you to make the big plays.