Mike O said:
The compulsions are getting worse, and with less time between them.Again, have you taken steps to restrict your access to material that distresses you?
No. I’m not sure I can. I keep doing it on breaks at work. I just don’t understand why I can’t stop.
My parents called me scared because I texted them a message about how much I loved them and they thought I might be suicidal. I just don’t understand why this is happening to me. It’s not like I ever had an overt interest in religion or theology previously, this has manifested as something horrific. I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I get that these are important issues. I think that existential, spiritual, philosophical, and religious issues are complex things to think about, but surely I can go a day without thinking about it and live normally?