Well, my mother set me up to talk to a friend of her’s tomorrow, saying that we’ll look into professional therapy after that. Not what I’d have preferred, but one step at a time. She insists that if I get some help, it should be a Catholic therapist. I’m not against this, but worry that she doesn’t quite realize that my views aren’t quite with her’s, and this that could move sideways. So a new problem. Just what I need. I think I made things worse instead of better.

Now she’s extremely Upset, thinking that I’m abandoning my beliefs and running screaming towards atheism. I don’t perceive it this way, and I don’t think her views on he situation are fair, but it kills me when I hurt her. I’ve made the situation hundreds of times worse.