No, no reconnection. I didn’t get the chance to even send a message to her before she blocked me. I suppose I shouldn’t hold it against her, though; I was deeply obsessed with her back in high school, and combine that with the religious phase I going through at the time, I said and did too many stupid, ill-thought-out things which wouldn’t leave anyone with warm memories of me.

I just wish I could let her know that I’ve grown some self-awareness over the last twelve years and that I realize now how inappropriate my behaviour towards her was back then. I want her to see me as a human being – an incredibly flawed human being, yes, but still a human being – and not as some sort of deranged boogeyman lurking in the shadows. I want to bury the hatchet between us and gain some real closure.