If I felt like my personal problems might have a chance I would consider quitting but I don’t want to quit and then have nothing for comfort. If my friends would be loving and support me I might would have a chance of quitting, because I need love and support in person to make a change like that. And truthfully they did offer this to me at one point and I blew it and threw it back in their faces and now they’ve all withdrawn and sort of left me alone. Not that I blame them or anything as I was DEFINITELY in the wrong. But now that I want the help I need them and they aren’t there anymore which is my fault. I know professional help is available and I would be willing to seek it but I need emotional support from people I’m actually close to as well and I threw all that away.