Basically just turned me into a twat who cared nothing but about how I felt. Stepped on my friends, ignored them, basically abondoned them under the guise of it making me feel better. Basically made it to where ALL I cared about was how I felt, and not how anybody else felt. The drinking and pot smoking have actually kindof done the opposite, I mean I obviously care how I feel or I wouldn’t bother posting any of this here, but in action I care more about how other people feel and kindof just ignore myself. I just need to find a balance.