So there’s a lot of things that frustrate, bother, and annoy me in life. However, since these are constant and consistent things, I just learn to deal with it. However, something of a different caliber resurfaced that I don’t deal with often.
I totally understand if this is really going to sound like such a petty thing to feel anxious about in an almost bad way. To put things in perspective/context, I graduated high school two years ago, and also obviously, so was my prom. Back then, I originally didn’t think I could get a date and almost considered not going until my dad started to get inside my mind, “You may regret not going later on.” I ended up going but not without successfully (to my amazement) ask someone to prom. You could say I went through this, “Whoa, she is really, really one of kind!” mindset with her. Looked stunning, had a brain on her, and had many things in common without really know each other that well prior to prom. She was even at my graduation.
Almost two years later, she wants to come over to see me and my family to “talk” next week. About what, no idea. It sounds weird, I know, but she is pretty nice and back when I met her, got along really well with the family, so my family loves her! Bearing in mind though, she already has a boyfriend and I sorta know the guy (we graduated in the same class but at best, could be considered acquaintances). Part of that stings. A little jealous? Sure. But I don’t have a right to really be that way. It’s not fair to her at all. I graduated a class ahead of her, and I moved to a different city. Communication isn’t my best, especially when there’s distance. I’m just clingy to the memories of my time in high school and how she played a part of being one of the highlights.
Phew. I just had to type that out and let these cheesy and cringey thoughts out.