Any of us men who think we always know what women will do are kidding ourselves.
Oh, now you tell me. Thanks a lot.
Also, FWIW I encountered a similar situation. Close to best friend, not a lot of other friends should that friendship get awkward, a few decades later and we’ve got kids and a mortgage. It sometimes does work out. But I stand by my initial assessment – get your own personal crap in order first, and that can do nothing but improve the odds of success (in addition to improving your odds of being able to handle it well if it doesn’t go your way). Desperation/hitting bottom/depression are great reasons to reach out to people, but not the best reasons for people to reach back out of anything but sympathy, and that’s not exactly what you’re angling for here.