For anyone suffering from depression…I’ve suffered from it ever since my first daughter died nine years ago. That was extremely traumatic and took a long time to overcome (if such a thing can be fully overcome, which it can’t), but the depression lingered. A few years ago I talked with my doctor (not a psychologist, just my general practitioner), and he put me on anti-depressants. It really helped a lot. It helps to this day.
That is rough man. Thoughts go out to you.