Fuck fuck fuck fuck. I am just so fucking sick at heart and angry and depressed right now. I saw more madness in the news. Another mass shooting in California at place that helps the disabled and needy and what the fuck is wrong with humanity!!! In the mist of all that, I try to put up the Christmas lights. We’ve always had a fight with mom about the Christmas lights. She is afraid we will break something in the living room, There are some fragile and expensive things there. We today despite how careful I thought I was being. I broke a lampshade. At the time we thought the lamp had broken. Turns out it was just the shade. Mom got real upset at the time we thought the lamp itself was broken. It was enough for me to decide not to put lights up again. I am just so mad at myself and depressed for being so stupid and clumsy and that get another Christmas tradition has gone to shit. I am just so fucking fed up right now. I don’t know what the fuck to do. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuckfuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck !!!
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