Possessed said:

I can't afford counseling, at least not now. Maybe when my raises and benefits all fully kick in (don't ask me why it's on a time table) And actually I'm part of management now, it would be extremely inconvenient for anybody to go a step higher than me and I really don't see them doing that, because they really need me in that place. (not being egotistically, they really truly do). I am confident that nobody will go over my head and do something like that. I could see them possibly getting together and asking me to go, but I really don't see them *making* me. For one reason, they aren't stupid. They need me and they know I need them, they aren't going to do something that would force me to be cut off from them. I may indeed go to rehab at some point, but not so soon after getting promoted into management.

Ok let's see what we've got here buddy. We've got excuses. We've got a bit of denial going on too. Then some more excuses. Yep. You make a pretty good addict. Top points. Look. As one pill popping drunk to another your time is running out on this faster than you think. Once you start to think you're in control instead of the slave you are you're on the way down. There's no two ways about it. At least you have the sense to talk to us about it. But buddy you're in big trouble here. And putting it off until you have another excuse is just stupid. I mean you've got the bucks to buy your daily fixes right? Well that's where you're going to get your counseling money. Besides there are community groups that'll do it free so that excuse is pretty lame. Strike one. Is that the best you got?

Now go haul ass to the nearest internet site run by alchoholics anonymous and dig deep into your schedule and figure or when you can meet with someone. I'll be here for you man. I'll always be here if you need me. But you've got to make the first move. No one can do that for you but you.

Peace.