darth_ender said:

I agree with Warbler. However, since you are not planning on listening at present, please, if you feel yourself starting to slip into suicidal thinking, immediately go to the hospital. If you were injured in an accident, you wouldn't think twice about spending a few days in recovery. Suicidality is no less an emergency than a critical injury, and I'm sure your job would understand. We'll never get that cut of ROTJ if you don't get help ;)

Okay, what you guys are saying about me taking time off of work makes sense. It really does. But something you are failing to include in your calculations (not a criticism or anything, really I do appreciate the thoughts) is that I need my coworkers. They are my best friends, they are my family. They care about me on a personal level that goes beyond work. It's not just the one lady I was talking about earlier, I'm close to a number of them as well. Many of them know about my substance problems, many of them know about my depression problems, a few even know about both. Only one (the lady) knows about my suicide attempt, and suffice it to say she is not happy about it. (Not that she punishes me or tried to make me feel bad about it) She ended up in tears and asking me why I didn't call her. I need people like that in my life, if I lose this job I lose my family. (Because the part that is my family isn't the part that would be making the decision to fire me so I can't depend on them to help me get time off)