I feel afraid that my previous encounter with the older woman may have fucked me up. I'm now finding it difficult to find sexual attraction to anybody except for another, older woman. She's closer to my age than the first, and better looking, and an overall far better human being with better morals and is much kinder to me. But the problem is that this is obviously not going to go anywhere, but I can't abandon the feeling of it. We work together, and honestly we're quite close. We talk alot. Sometimes we talk outside of work, and we've even gotten drinks a few times, as friends. We playfully flirt with each other sometimes (but this is at work, so it's like 'office flirting'). She's really a great person and she's been wonderful to me in supporting me with all my problems. But I'm not really sure what to do at this point. Not that being attracted to older women is necessarily a horrible thing, but it can be when you know there's nothing you can do about it. (by older I mean 35-ish). We're like best friends, and I'm not sure what to do about that. As I've said, we've grown close, and it's two sided. She is not, at least that I am aware of, sexually attracted to me (at least not any more than what any 35-ish woman would be to a somewhat decent looking 21 year old... not being conceited, just stating my point), but she does depend on me for emotional support at times and she does like me alot. I just don't have the heart to tell her that we can't talk any more or be friends, that would hurt her, and I really just don't want to do that. And I can't ask her to stop flirting with me either, because that would also signify that something was wrong and might make it hard for her to talk with me, and that's also not something that I want. I do not wish to cause her any pain as she has been nothing but wonderful to me, but I'm not sure where to go from here.