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Post #786183

Author
Possessed
Parent topic
The Real Me
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https://originaltrilogy.com/post/id/786183/action/topic#786183
Date created
24-Aug-2015, 4:13 AM

I very much enjoy the premise of this thread and I hope more people take the time to go into detail as Ender has!  Very insightful and interesting.

In real life I am much different than online, I'm far more... I guess you could say normal.  I'm much nicer and more polite, more easy going, more calm.  If you looked at me you would not guess that I was the type to be into fan edits and stuff like that.  I don't look or act like a nerd at all.  And it's not so much that I try to hide my inner nerdiness, it's just that I know that your average person doesn't care about fan edits, how version A of star wars is different than version B, so if star wars is brought up, I'll say I like it, I'll mention the originals are better than the prequels, and I'll point out that the original versions are superior to the special editions, and I'll leave it at that.  I don't go out of my way to bring up star wars unless it's to somebody else that I already know is a star wars nerd, in which case occasionally I'll mention a fanedit.  I am somewhat mainstream in appearance, clean cut, clean shaven, somewhat good looking, just look like a regular guy.  On the inside I'm rather sensitive, and spend a huge amount of my time feeling highly depressed, anxious, and at times even suicidal.  Not that I would ever kill myself, it's just a desire that I sometimes get without ever intending to act on it.  But I try not to let that part of me show save for a few people who I know actually care.

Even in my personal life I'm a bit of a double life.  On one end I work customer service at Wal-Mart, and I'm one of the top ones (possibly being promoted soon as well), professional and all that.  But on the other end I'm usually secretly drunk at work, and always secretly high.  (and it is secret except for the few workers that I'm close friends with, there are 3 or 4 that are basically my best friends at this point that are probably worried, oh well.  But don't give me the 'they probably know and just won't say anything' speal, because, that might would fly if I worked in the back stocking pallets or something, but they would NOT let me do customer service if they knew, as it could potentially cost them money if customers knew).  And then after work I'm like a local town rockstar, playing guitar with my own act as well as guest performing with local bands.  I'm kindof known in my town for being a good player, and also in a smaller nature for being a partyer.  (although most don't realize the 'party' never stops for me).  I don't know what else to say and I don't want to clutter the thread, so I may edit this post later.