My current job is RN on a psychiatric floor of a hospital. There are numerous people who come to my floor extremely depressed, suicidal, feeling worthless, and ready to end it all. Just because you post that here signals to me that you want help, you are in fact asking for it, but from people you know to be largely powerless to do it because of your low self worth. You are worthwhile. Every soul is worthwhile and has something good to give the world. There are those who choose to act on evil, there are those who give up and withhold their good, and there are those who at times need the good of others to get through their hard spots, and one day are in a position to help others. I have my own history with depression, but I've made it to a point of stability, and I am able to now help others. I was just talking to one of my patients, and he feels very fortunate to have this unit and these staff members and get the help he needs. He was suicidal but he says he is having a really good day and is ready to go forth a happier man. Think of what the world would miss without him. And I, once (2000-2001) a suicidal individual myself, was part of what helped this man realize his self worth and give him new perspective.

You don't necessarily need hospitalization. But you do need help. Please get it. You are worth it.

As for my own griping, I've worked two 16+ hour days in a row. I won't get off work till 11:30 pm and have to come back in on my day off at 6:00 am for mandatory training. The time for each mandatory meeting changes each time to accommodate different shifts, so tomorrow it's super early, and it's my day off. Yuck. On the other hand, I have good news about work, but I'll put that elsewhere.