The Place to Go for Emotional Support — Page 8

Oh don't be silly, you worded it fine.  I'm just joshin' ya.  Hang in there my friend.  :)

bkev said:

My cousin fell off the night of his 4-story complex last night.

 Sorry to hear that man.  What did he fall off of, I can't tell because of the "night" typo.

bkev said:

My cousin fell off the night of his 4-story complex last night.  I believe he's on life support.  I come from a large family, but there are only a few close in age to me so this is hitting hard.  There's nothing I can do, I'm over 3,000 miles away - I always have been.  As a result I've always felt distanced and it's a little hard for me to grasp the magnitude of this situation.  All I can do is pray (yes, me) and hope he'll pull out of it.  We've gotten a little good news since, but I have no idea as to any brain damage. God willing, there isn't any.

 Sorry to hear that, bkev.  I'll pray as well.

I have a large family too, but I am not terribly familiar with anyone beyond my most immediate family.  I have not seen many cousins for years.  As a result, though I hear of various good and bad happenings among them, it's hard to feel connected.  So in other words, I do not believe your feelings are wrong in any way; it's hard to mourn for someone you know is related, but is in many respects a stranger.  Yet at the same time, that blood relation, that knowledge and even vague familiarity, still make it hard to deal with.  I am so sorry for your cousin and for the emotional turmoil this is causing for you.  Four stories make for a high fall, and it's a miracle he is alive at this moment.  My prayers are with you and your family, especially for your cousin.  I'm not sure how you stand on things, so I'll keep it vague and simply state that I hope whatever is best for him comes to pass.  I'm truly sorry. 

I'm sorry to hear that too, bkev. I'll be praying for you guys as well.

I miss my mother.

Sorry Possessed.  This can't be a difficult day if your mother is no longer with you.  

She's alive, she just wants nothing to do with me anymore.  We live maybe a mile or two apart and she'll have lunch with me once or twice a year.  Could be worse.

Today my grandma went back home to West Virginia after a short 3 day visit here.  This is the wife of my grandpa that passed away earlier this year.  Because of her health I will most likely never see her again.  My other grandma on the other side of the family has about 5 years 10 tops left too.

If that wasn't enough, one of my cats died later this afternoon.  He was old.  He had disappeared for a few days and nobody knew where he was.  He reappeared this afternoon and his face was completely mutilated by an infection that had apparently set in from some animal that seemed to have bit him on the fact.  It was all bloody, swollen, and smelled of rotting flesh.  He was obviously suffering horribly but he was still alive.  He came and rubbed on me like he always does and purred, but I think he knew as well as I did that it was the end.  I was able to get ahold of a vet willing to put him down on a Saturday.  After I set with him in the driveway for a while, I finally had to go get the pet carrier.  I told him to get in.  He came up to me, looked me in the eye, put his paw on my hand and meowed one last time at me like he knew it was the end and was saying bye.  Then he went in the carrier without resisting and it was over.  He was like my best friend.  I love my other 2 cats, but it was different with him.  He didn't expect anything or cry for attention, all he ever needed was to be in my presence.   If he was just sitting next to me, even if I wasn't petting him, he was happy... almost like a dog.  Needless to say I'm in tears.  I'll miss him.  I wish this didn't have to happen on the same day that I saw my grandma for the last time.  

I'm very sorry to hear that, Possessed.   I know losing a pet can be difficult.  I have lost 4 dogs in my lifetime.   It is never easy.  Just reading your post almost brought me to tears.   I can't imagine what it would be like to have your pet die on you, knowing that your grandmother was about to die as well and your other grandmother doesn't have much time left either.   I am sure it is very difficult.   I'll be praying for you and your family.  Hang in there. 

I'm sorry to hear all that, Possessed. I've made it this far in life without ever losing anyone I really loved, not even a pet, but I know it would be hard to part with any of my grandparents, knowing it would be the last time. I'll keep your family in my prayers.

Thanks fellas.

Handman said:

This song pretty accurately describes my situation right now. I'm still fairly young, and this is the first time I've had to go through this where I might actually have a chance. We'll see what happens.

 I screwed that up. And my mind occassionally wanders back to this situation. It doesn't help when I am forcefully reminded of it.

Yeah, yeah. Funny thing is, it was down to confusion and anxiety on my part. I wasn't rejected, I was accepted, but I backed out before anything had begun. So, you can imagine how I feel about that. Especially when all my good friends are shared. I learned many valuable lessons from that clusterfuck of a situation.

Warbler said:

I don't know why but I right now I feel so, so, so, angry. 

fuck everything.

Care to share?