My mom is raising a sink if I watch movies and Tv shows on my widescreen TV that I bought for the family back when I had a job, in any other setting then squeezing the widescreen picture into a 4:3 frame. She keeps saying that you can't see actor's faces in widescreen and she takes it as a personal insult when I say that the faces look long and don't look right with that setting because it's "what works for her" and that even when I am the one who put a movie in and she just came into the living room "I have no right to force her to watch it in a way that doesn't work".

I really need a job and to move out. I am looking and going through the programs but that can take over a year and I am really getting stressed out now. What is more my mom is making me take her for walks every day and bugging me about every single little thing around the house and at my age it just feels too weird but again when I try to explain this to her she takes it as a personal attack. i think it's because my dad is never around when she is because of his work and having dialisis for his kidneys, so she is using me as a stand in and at my age when i have never had a real girlfriend it just feels too weird.

There is nothing anyone can do about it and I am not saying it is hopeless or that I am going to kill myself or anything, I just have no one to vent to in person right now and I feel about ready to snap.

I think once I get out of here I will refuse to have anything to do with Woman for the rest of my life. I am sorry but with the way my brain works and how I get easily stressed out the way even the littlest thing becomes a whole emotional mess and a fight to the death just doesn't work for me. I really want to become a hermit who only has to worry about myself and my own problems.

Sorry for venting about problems no one can fix, but I just needed to let off some steam. Thanks for letting me do that, it's a big help.